I have tried very hard not to bother the moderators of this site about the fiction archive. They have a lot to deal with.
It has become clear to me that a lot of people who love the archive are in fact, not participating members of the Eunuch forums
people who were afraid to voice their concerns could participate vicariously in the eunuch experience without putting word to their desires, or fears. This was definitely the case for me, before I found I needed the forums and the help it provides.
The problem with that situation is, those silent community members have not participated in the valuable work that is done here. They haven't figured out the etiquette of the forums, or who they should respect, and who they shouldn't piss off.
Since the Fiction Archive went down, Talula, Kristoff, and the rest have been pummeled with emails and messages that say something like;
"Bring back teh stoyz NAO!!!" and "Y U No have storiez animoar? I needz dem!"
I gather most of those emails have been insulting and demanding. They lack a complete understanding of how protecting the stories have cost the moderators personally, in both time and sleepless nights. I'd be mad about that too. Fortunately, I'm not the one who has to deal with anonymous hordes of unhappy internet surfers.
What has happened on this site is very important. It is about understanding what the eunuch experience means to ourselves as well as how the world interprets it. The whole of eunuch.org was shut down because of a complaint about the stories, and a fundamental misunderstanding about what they mean.
No one here wants to go around castrating children to get their jollies. I stand by my belief that none of what is written celebrates pedophiles, or promotes the mutilation of the innocent. Though the stories might involve terrible, or uncomfortable themes and situations, there is much more than that being explored.
I had my sexuality damaged as a child. I lived a half life crippled by my misunderstanding of that situation. The stories helped me explore what had happened to me, and why I am the way I am. Art is important in understanding the most complex parts of ourselves. Limiting that art damages the work the EA has traditionally provided. Removal or censorship of the Fiction Archive is a fundamental question that speaks to the future of what eunuch.org will be, and what help it can give.
The stories have been a touchstone for many current members. So many of us would never have joined if the stories hadn't been there. We would never have become members if we hadn't had the stories to embolden us.
Those people that are pestering and annoying the moderators are deserving of help, but they haven't found the way into the forums yet. They are afraid, and confused, and lack the bravery or the eloquence to express their desires freely. I hope some of them will one day join us, when they finally understand themselves enough to reach out.
Until then, they act like little children crying for their bottle. I feel sad for them, even though I wish they would handle their distress in a more constructive manner.
I think Talula wants to wait until the MoM event so that he doesn't have to deal with a bunch of whining, crying, desperate horde with no etiquette to speak of. Talula just wants an adult discussion with others who are as committed to the EA as he is. The MoM event is the best place for that, it seems.
The moderators have not been hostile or unwilling as I see it. They are simply being careful. I truly believe that they desire input from us all, they just don't want to be yelled at, and berated while they grapple with a very difficult decision.
I have worried myself that some moderators think that readers of the archive are using it for a quick masturbation session, and nothing more. No doubt there are those that do. (Probably more than I care to think about.) This is not a laudable reason for returning the stories in my opinion. I highly doubt most authors wrote their stories with that intent.
The reason for returning the fiction archive should not be to make happy a horny audience that wants a quick yank. It should return so that it may allow those who truly need an outlet to express themselves creatively. It should return for those who read it to know they are not alone. It should return for the people who gain hope and strength by living vicariously in a world where people think like they do, and struggle with what they struggle with. This was how the Fiction Archive kept me alive, and gave me hope until I was brave enough to seek the help of the forums.
This is big stuff, and it needs to be handled with patience and respect.
I hope the stories return, and I hope they return uncensored.
I equally desire that the stories are handled in a way that protects the forum community from further harm.
It is my belief that the moderators want that too.