OK, time for another update, since it's been about 6 months. We're at a year and a half since my most recent surgery. Let's do things as a Q&A since I haven't done one of those in a while.
Q: So how've you been?
A: OK, very busy. Looking for a new job and planning yet another vacation, and why do journal rejections all arrive at the same time?
Q: I mean, how've you been with your whole gender project?
A: OK, fine. I've been off of hormones totally for almost 6 months now and I think I'll stick with this for a while.
Q: How are the energy levels this time? They were an issue at first, which caused you to go back on T for a while.
A: Pretty good. This time I eased off of the hormones (gel-applied) rather than crashed off of them, and I think that this made all the difference.
Q: How has your boyfriend reacted?
A: We're not together, but not because of that. Long distance, among other things, finally got to us. We're still close though, and I would be lying if I said we didn't have feelings for each other. He's a catch.
Q: Denn, ich will mit dir schlaffen.
A: Nein danke. Ich möchte etwas mehr romantisch.
Q: Is there anything you don't like about being a no-hormone nullo?
A: While my energy levels are good, the thing I notice the most is that I'm not as athletic as before. I really have to push myself to go to the gym, for instance. Also, while I still don't have a huge amount of body fat, my butt and legs don't look as nice as before. But I haven't gotten fat or grown breasts of any sort.
That, and public bathrooms.
Q: What is it that you do like?
A: Well, I feel right. When I sit down, I'm not sitting down on anything that feels like it doesn't belong there. Similarly, when I walk, nothing bumps against my legs. I feel 'free'. Also, I feel much more relaxed without hormones.
Q: Does this mean you're asexual?
A: No, I'm still more sexual than most of the guys I know. I'm just not a top. Masturbating is no problem, and between-the-legs sex really gets me going because I have all of those nerve endings. Also, my nipples are now my best sex organ apart from my brain, of course.
Q: So I guess you're a-gendered then, but still sexual.
A: Exactly. Not that passersby would be able to tell. I get mistaken for young, even younger than I got mistaken before my little project began. I still get viewed as male; I still have to shave; though my one chest hair doesn't grow anymore. Oddly enough, my three nipple hairs do. What's up with that?
Q: Do you still orgasm?
A: Hell yeah. They're mostly dry with just a bit of clear fluid, and they're a full-body experience. Much less to clean up after.
Q: Do you want to get together with a nullo or a eunuch?
A: Sure. But there aren't that many out there, so regular guys are OK too. Somehow people who meet me seem to think I'm a top; that's annoying; but it's not the end of the world.
Q: Any plans to become a woman?
A: No. I don't want to spend time doing my hair or buy tighter jeans, and I look fine as it is.
Q: How about getting the full monty while remaining a guy?
A: I don't want my insides torn apart or to take a month off work, but I can see the appeal of having a vagina. It seems a whole lot more sanitary than using the 'back door'. I reserve that option for later--that, or I might want to get whatever bits I have left removed. Not a high priority either way.
Q: Has meeting guys been a problem?
A: I live in a backwater, but on my visits to big cities, no. I find that guys who are attracted to me are attracted to me, especially if they're tops. Also, gender-variant guys are a bit of a turnon to me, and they are often pretty curious. I'm actually pretty conservative sexually--you won't find me in bathhouses or meeting random guys on the blue pages--call me old fashioned, in a weird way.
On the EA, there aren't all that many real eunuchs/nullos, but I met my ex here, and I guess the lesson from that is to remain open-minded.
Q: I've been thinking of getting done since I read a hot story on the EA about five years ago.
A: Good for you. When you come, you'll think differently.
Q: I've been thinking of getting done as long as I can remember.
A: PM me.
Q: I've been thinking of getting done since I started having feelings for guys.
A: Come out as gay (or bi). It's cheaper than getting snipped; those who love you will still love you and those who don't won't; and you can then explore yourself on your own terms.
Q: I think that God wants me to be a nullo.
A: God doesn't care. What do you want? If you want to be nullo, explore the reasons why. If you think someone else wants to be nullo, run away; he's a bad influence.
Q: How do you see yourself in 5 years?
A: Married to a sweet guy, back in the United States. With a pug. They're just adorable. I can't get pregnant, but that won't stop me from trying.
Q: What would you call your gender?
A: I explain it to people as "dickless eunuch" since laypeople don't know what nullo is. I'm more masculine than feminine, but I'm neither at heart. While I'm not offended by people referring to me as a guy because that's how most people's minds work, I'm just sort of my own thing. Which suits me just fine.
