today is my three month point.

Everything has been going just great, I couldn't ask for anything more.

Three months later; the hot flashes have all but gone. I haven't had one in the last month.

My weight gain has stopped. I say my body is going thru a bigger-bigger-bigger-smaller stage. bigger stomach, bigger chest, bigger hips, smaller penis.

I have lost about 50% of my length and girth down there. Somethings I haven't been losing size on are my muscles or strength. If anything they are getting bigger because this new lifestyle has forced me to take better care of myself. My right wrist and forearm do seem to be losing their definition.... My diet is better and I exercise more. Im not losing weight though, just maintaining, and that's fine.

Our Jesus sent me the "eunuchs" documentary. I found it very interesting, Z and thefraj both came across as very nice eunuchs. It made me feel special because I am a part of this family. I dont think i am as interesting as the people on the documentary but we are all characters and have our story to tell. I love all you guys.

Speaking of Jesus; I will be going on a mission a lot sooner than I had planned on. 4 circumstances came together just right at one moment this week. I will be taking a leave of absence from work this week, and I will be out doing personal missionary work very soon. This is my first mission, so everything is new and exciting. Please keep me in your prayers.

God has been putting people in my life right and left to witness too, some under odd conditions. That is something i consider very precious to me so I wont get into details here. Castration has helped me grow in so many ways spiritually. Before i was consumed with my flesh, now it is easy to stay in the spirit. Before I was consumed with lust, it seems something I have to deal with now is doubt.

One Christian off the board has been challenging me on my castration. I asked him if he realized i was already castrated and seeking to convince me I am wrong is a purely evil thing. But our dialogue did make one thing more prevalent to me; that my castration mirrored a Jewish man's badge of devotion to God. Both are a sign of spiritual devotion, but mine is also a badge that I will stay perpetually single and devoted to God alone. Married men pay attention to their wives and what they want. I will pay attention to God and what He wants.

My lusts have been quenched as a by product of this devotion. It was all part of a perfect plan. It is just great and I am happy to see what awaits me ont he missionary field.

My brother has come back to Christ, he always has questions for me when we hang out. He was saying how he knows the bible but not really, like he doesnt know anything about jeremiah, ester, or a lot of the people in the Old Testament. I started to tell him about the story of ester and how it is the only book in the bible without any of God's names in it. He seemed interested in it and we started reading it together. The first 4 chapters mentioned eunuchs about 8 times, and after the first time reading "the king's eunuch.." he looks at me and says, " guys with no balls, right?" i just said, "mm hmm." Although i wanted to know his opinion on eunuchs, i didnt say anything. Basically if my brother knows about me being a eunuch, my mom will soon know also. She wouldnt understand it at all and i think it would cause some sort of unspoken rift in our perfect relationship. I could really relate to thefraj's story about his "mum."

One thing I am going to address here for one last time, is the regret question. No, I never regret what i did. If i could push a button and have them back attached......no deal howie.

grace and peace

randy.

randy (imported) wrote: Wed Aug 06, 2008 5:36 pm today is my three month point.

Everything has been going just great, I couldn't ask for anything more.

Three months later; the hot flashes have all but gone. I haven't had one in the last month.

My weight gain has stopped. I say my body is going thru a bigger-bigger-bigger-smaller stage. bigger stomach, bigger chest, bigger hips, smaller penis.

I have lost about 50% of my length and girth down there. Somethings I haven't been losing size on are my muscles or strength. If anything they are getting bigger because this new lifestyle has forced me to take better care of myself. My right wrist and forearm do seem to be losing their definition.... My diet is better and I exercise more. Im not losing weight though, just maintaining, and that's fine.

Congratulation on your first 3 months. What you are going through is very common and normal. The amount of change will always vary some from one to another. You will keep going through changes for some time yet. I am very happy that it is working out good for you. The muscle will turn to fat in most cases. It is just part of being a eunuch. Hope things keep going as planned for you.

great news

keep centered on Christ great things await you in the missionary field

you are in my prayers

Congratulations Randy on the 3 month point. The emotional changes are the greatest changes. The whole thought processes of your brain seems to change. That's the part that I like.

One thing I do not remember reading about is how castration would effect my sleep. In the last month or so my sleep pattern has been greatly effected. Has anyone else experienced this?

in what way

I hope the sleep problem resolves, but you seem to achieved most of what you have sought with becoming a eunuch....

randy (imported) wrote: Tue Aug 12, 2008 8:07 am One thing I do not remember reading about is how castration would effect my sleep. In the last month or so my sleep pattern has been greatly effected. Has anyone else experienced this?

randy (imported) wrote: Tue Aug 12, 2008 8:07 am One thing I do not remember reading about is how castration would effect my sleep. In the last month or so my sleep pattern has been greatly effected. Has anyone else experienced this?

I have had problems with not dreaming and my DHEA levels were below normal. My doctor put my on 50mg of DHEA (Oral Tabs) and the dreams came back like I've never had them. Vivid! Then she noticed my Estrodiol rising a we cut out the DHEA. No dreams and I was waking up tired.... DHEA taken by patches appears to not raise the E2 (Or BioIdentical cream) so thats what I'm doing now. What sleep issues are you having?

randy (imported) wrote: Tue Aug 12, 2008 8:07 am One thing I do not remember reading about is how castration would effect my sleep. In the last month or so my sleep pattern has been greatly effected. Has anyone else experienced this?

I know you may need more sleep sometimes, this is also normal with age, but we are still young.

You need to try and get a good nights sleep, I take it as you need more sleep.

You need to get a minimum of 8 hours of sleep a night normally a little more would not hurt.

mrt (imported) wrote: Tue Aug 12, 2008 10:23 am I have had problems with not dreaming and my DHEA levels were below normal. My doctor put my on 50mg of DHEA (Oral Tabs) and the dreams came back like I've never had them. Vivid! Then she noticed my Estrodiol rising a we cut out the DHEA. No dreams and I was waking up tired.... DHEA taken by patches appears to not raise the E2 (Or BioIdentical cream) so thats what I'm doing now. What sleep issues are you having?

I know you can actually get DHEA Cream online without an RX as well, a Physican can as well prescribe a compound DHEA Cream for you also.

I think Pregnenolone is also helpful for making you feel better, you can also get this over the counter normally 50-100 MG is what is used or recommended, these hormones should help you to adjust more easily.

I have heard of a few guys around our ages who have used this as a sole HRT who have been happy with it, but at 50-100 MG which is a lot of over the counter cream I would normally use 25 or 50 mg in the morning then another 25-50 at night, just depending, if you do not feel anything or much then it needs to be increased.

If you are having problems sleeping then I would recommend Melatonin normally 1 mg is good to start out with and if that does not work then increase to no more than 3 MG normally.

These are my opinions no medical advise is intended, just some helpful information I am passing on.