Re: I want to be a Eunuch bad
Posted: Wed Feb 06, 2008 12:43 pm
bobbie (imported) wrote: Tue Feb 05, 2008 8:55 pm So you think you want castration
If you think, you are really serious about becoming an eunuch there is a very simple test you can take. It will require you to really push you mind and body to the limit. You will experience firsthand the good, the bad, and the ugly of castration. You will experience erections that will get weaker with time. Orgasms will be less and less often. Will wake up in the middle of the night laying is a sweat soaked bed. You will see your weight slowly increase if you are like most. A little bigger around the hips and thighs. Your interests in people will change. They will seem a little different to you. Looking in the mirror you will see your mussels being less. Your breast will show a bit more. Your best friend may say something about how you look different and you many not like how the reference was made. If fact you are getting all emotional about it. You are offended and hurt. Later when alone you may lay on the bed and start to cry as you think about it. You are only 6 mouths into the tests. You have at least 6 more to go. You are a strong, and know for sure what you want. I need to be a eunuch. Yep I have to be one no matter how I look or feel. I can always make new friends. Time to go shopping to get some new cloths. Your shirts are not fitting like they use to. I just need to get a larger size and it will be OK. So it will look a little large around the neck. Pants need to be a little a inch or two larger to fit the waist. No biggie. But, I just hate getting those darn hot flashes in front of people. Trying to explain why I get all red and start sweating so often. Hope they will stop soon. Hope people are wrong when they say it can last for a very long time. But I will be an eunuch soon. I want this life. Do not understand why I seem to have some loneness now in my life. I do mess the desire to have physical contact with others. That was nice. Did feel good. Did have a different kind of closeness where I could talk things over with someone special. Only 3 months to go and I will be an eunuch. Things are so different then what I thought it would be like. I did not want all of shit. Eunuch should have all this eunuch calm. I am surely not getting much of that. I keep getting these mood swings just like my mother had. This sucks. Why did no one tell me about this. But, I still want to be an eunuch. It is right for me. I just know it is. No one is going to talk me out of this. So another friend seems to have left me. Who need friends anyways. I will find other eunuch to be with.
Do I really want all the changes that I have gone through for the rest of my life. I have only one chance at making the choice. If I say yes, castrate me, it is over and no going back. No do over’s.
Not everything will happen as outlined but in general most will. The changes in the body and mind will change. That is fact. Castration changes your life for good.
If you want a life test then try chemical castration. Give it a year. If you are so sure then you can handle a life test. If you cannot handle the test then you are not really sure that you really want it. Your desires are more in line of a fetish or fantasy. Castration fantasy is somewhat common we are finding. The life test does sort out the real from the fantasy.
If you are on the correct dose, you will experience a real life test of how YOU will feel when castrated. Most of your questions on just what it is like will be answered for you. You will go through all the emotional changes. See your body change before your eyes.You will see how much depression you will go through. Everyone goes through some degree of depression. When you are castrated you will go through depression again.
It's different for everyone. The above can and does happen to some. For me though, I still have a real
(hey, just because I can't get sexual satisfaction does not mean I can't give a partner sexual satisfaction, and I like being held, kissed and cuddled). I did not loose ANY of my friends, in fact they all accepted it quite well (maybe because gay men are often more accepting, having been discriminated against all their lives
). That said, even my straight friends are okay with it.I guess my point is: Your results may vary. But Bobbie is RIGHT, you should certainly do a test on chem castration first before committing. Any side effects are better IMHO than the possible regrets of having an irreversible surgical procedure which alters your entire life.
Good luck.