I'll try to answer your question about how it feels to lose body parts the best that I can.

When I looked at my hand and saw that two of my fingers were gone I was shocked. However, I quikly accepted the fact that they were gone. I hated losing them and I wish I could some how get them back. But I didn't feel sorry for myself or expect anyone else to. I am very self conscious about it, and I try to hide my hand as much as possible when I'm in public. If someone notices it and asks me about it I don't mind talking about it. But I hate it when people stare. Especially the ones who elbow the person next to them so that they can stare too. Not a day goes by that I don't think about my fingers, but it doesn't bother me as much as it once did. It can be a slight hinderance at times, but the thing that bothers me most is the appearance.

When I was castrated it was different. I wanted to have my testicles cut off. They were not taken from me against my will. I have never regreted being castrated. After being castrated I didn't have any feelings that my body wasn't whole. I feel more complete now than I did when I had testicles.

I hope that helps.

The Real Eunuch,

Thank you very much for sharing your personal experience. The message I got was that if you want the modification, that you may not experience it as a loss.

With regards,

SD

Exactly. Good luck with whatever decision you make.