As always, plix, I appreciate your thoughtful, caring responses. I certainly can't rule out depression striking but I'm no stranger to it at all. If that should happen, I will take immediate action. I, too, have been depressed all of my life (until I started the monoamine oxidase inhibitor antidepressant earlier this year), in fact back as far as I can remember to early childhood. I was so severly depressed after been assaulted and seriously injured in 1984 that for the first time I was actually thinking of ways to commit suicide. It was an effort every night to force myself to stay in bed and not get up and get the knife, for instance. I really should have been hospitalized then. There's a lot more to this assault story that might better explain why I would get so depressed but I don't want to go into that here. After dealing with subsequent post-traumatic stress syndrome three times, the first five years after the assault, I learned that when I start to feel out of control and depressed what I need to do is take immediate, positive actiion to prevent severe depression. This approach has worked terrifically for me each time. And each subsequent episode of PTSD became less severe and of shorter duration because I took positive action immeditately upon realizing what was going on in my mind. I'm reasonably confident I'd be able to do the same now. Your point is well taken and appreciated.

Todd, I am about a week behind you on the androcur, i havent found myself being very emotional yet, but i am keeping me eyes out for it. Havent had any desire to ejaculate but about once a day i get the smallest bit erect (more like a feeling then actually erect) for about 10 seconds. No erections at night.

So far i have been very happy with the overall efects and whether its phsyc or real i am being alot less agressive. I do notice that i get tired alot more easily, but hoping that goes away with time. I agree with most the posts on EA that a real test of the positive v negative effects can't be determined unitl we have been on the drug for a long period of time, but i am hoping for a good outcome.

thanks for all the posts about your progress, its been great to seem them from somebody who is going through the same stages at the same time.

Dave

Wow !!

Hi David,

If you're not aware of it, I post regularly in the 'Blog' section, which I consider more of a diary type thing. So I don't start each new entry with an explanation of everything that's gone before. This morning I experienced the most intense happiness imaginable. So intense, I wouldn't have believe it would ever happen to me. I was emotionally exhausted by it this afternoon. As far a low energy goes, I've found that if I go exercise, and I may have to take that a little more slowly than I used to, I feel very energized. So I tend to force myself to exercise even when I feel like I don't have the energy for it. The energy always returns. I've even been able to increase the amount of weight I lift in the last few weeks. Best of luck to you.

Just a quick note. The last few days I've backed off on the Androcur, going from 100 mg/day to 50 mg/day. This is because I'm running low and waiting for the shipment of generic Androcur to arrive. It 'should' arrive no later than the end of this week but I'm hedging my bets. I live in a townhouse and there's been a tendancy lately for the mail person to put the mail in the wrong box. That could further hold things up. At any rate, in the five days or so I've been on the 50 mg/day, I haven't noticed a difference. That is, no hint of a sign of libido returning, etc.