For me youth left me with a lot of widom, understanding, empathy-unfortunately it also left me with a lot of pain and a perspecive 99 percent of people will never have.



I like the empathy,understanding, wisdom-the knowing, the fact that life can change in a day , a week , a month, a year-and you can end up loosing who you are and becoming someone else.Im glad i know, even though it would be much easier if i didnt, why should others go through what im going through and not me> why them and not me...?

phsically and mentally.

Oh *sighs* its getting better, its been over 6 years..its time for life to return again.

Though it will never be the same again, i am tainted and know things most people will never know or see.

Hi there:

Your thoughts ring a bit of a bell with me. My problem when I was young was really that I was more gay than straight, but was straight enough to fake it throughout my life to date. I believe that my interest in castration arises from the tensions that have been the consequence of that. The element of never wanting to grow up wasn't there but the discomfort and uncertainty of my efforts to conform with the norm definitely are an influencing factor in my interests in this area. In many respects the child still rules within me. I keep looking for comfort and reassurance in making decisions in my life. If I was more an adult I would probably have done it by now but fear and trepidation about the consequences and adjustments required in my life have restrained me but the interest remains.

The only thing I can add is "Be informed and be sure that you are ready for it". If not keep looking around for further advice and information from people who have been there and done that to help you you make the right decision for your needs and wants for your future life. Many such peoplehere will be more than willing to share their thoughts and advice with you as they have with me in the past .

I am probably preaching too much. Good luck in your search for a way forward.

Francis (imported) wrote: Thu May 03, 2007 3:40 pm Hi there:

Your thoughts ring a bit of a bell with me. My problem when I was young was really that I was more gay than straight, but was straight enough to fake it throughout my life to date. I believe that my interest in castration arises from the tensions that have been the consequence of that. The element of never wanting to grow up wasn't there but the discomfort and uncertainty of my efforts to conform with the norm definitely are an influencing factor in my interests in this area. In many respects the child still rules within me. I keep looking for comfort and reassurance in making decisions in my life. If I was more an adult I would probably have done it by now but fear and trepidation about the consequences and adjustments required in my life have restrained me but the interest remains.

The only thing I can add is "Be informed and be sure that you are ready for it". If not keep looking around for further advice and information from people who have been there and done that to help you you make the right decision for your needs and wants for your future life. Many such peoplehere will be more than willing to share their thoughts and advice with you as they have with me in the past .

I am probably preaching too much. Good luck in your search for a way forward.

Those words could have been written by me. Thanks, Francis.

Yes, puberty, once its been there, there is no way back, luckily these days it becomes more accepted for transgender kids to get intervention