Re: uk people,
Posted: Wed Nov 29, 2006 7:31 pm
Hi UKBoy (and everyone)! Sorry for not replying sooner. I'm here in the UK too, and was about your age when I went to see Dr Kimmel.
Because of the nature of this thread, and some bad thoughts recently, I found I couldn't write a response even though I tried. Looking at the clock I can say that it has taken me two hours to write this. My own words are starting to irritate the hell out of me. And I guess I found that some of my own issues havn't yet been put to bed entirely. (maybe 75% of them had?)
I can't pretend to know exactly how you feel, but I know how much you want this and how much risk you'll be willing to take to get it. I know I did. It would be wonderful if you can persuade doctor(s) in the UK that this is right for you, for your mental health and wellbeing. And receive the qualified medical help you deserve. You will be very fortunate (and in fairly safe hands!) if you can persuade your doctors of this.
And this 9 months may actually come as a bit of a blessing in disguise. Just as Jesus said, chemical castration will give you the same effect as being cut, without doing anything irreversible. You can be a eunuch even without cutting. And discontinue the medication and you'll be back the way you were.
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Anyway, I'm going to stop right there, because there's something I consider more important to watch out for. After castration, watch out for depression! I had some issues that I thought I had entirely dealt with. I now realize, after talking about this whole subject with friends from Form Media, and here in this thread, that I still have some demons. And these demons are empowered by societies refusal to accept this whole subject. Societies heterosexual, hyper-mascline/hyper-femanine role models and views.
When I tried going to my doctor at 17, I was offered a course of psyhotherapy that my parents forced me into, to "help me deal with my sexual issues". I was sick. I am sick. This is where these bad thoughts come in. This is what gives those demons power.
It is not normal to want to be castrated, is it? It is worth thinking about this for a moment. I don't say this as a negative thing. You know what you want. I know what I wanted. I wonder what makes us feel this way? I don't know. I suspect the answer is like asking someone why they are gay, or transgendered. Maybe we are all sick in some way? Defective and lacking as human beings. Like a broken mechanical part of society that doesn't function as expected. Maybe our only place - besides the very rim of society - is in a mental institute, or the kilns of Auschwitz-Birkenau?
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Anyway, normally I would edit everything above this line. It was just my thoughts and feelings transposed into words. And I suppose I just wanted people to know I have been watching this thread. I just wish I could be more use to UKBoy right now. I hope - in a strange way - by airing my deamons I hope to at least show what my problems were dealing with it.
I certainly wish you the best of luck, however it happens. Just please try and make sure you are safe.
AND PLEASE try the chemical route before doing any surgery!
Because of the nature of this thread, and some bad thoughts recently, I found I couldn't write a response even though I tried. Looking at the clock I can say that it has taken me two hours to write this. My own words are starting to irritate the hell out of me. And I guess I found that some of my own issues havn't yet been put to bed entirely. (maybe 75% of them had?)
I can't pretend to know exactly how you feel, but I know how much you want this and how much risk you'll be willing to take to get it. I know I did. It would be wonderful if you can persuade doctor(s) in the UK that this is right for you, for your mental health and wellbeing. And receive the qualified medical help you deserve. You will be very fortunate (and in fairly safe hands!) if you can persuade your doctors of this.
And this 9 months may actually come as a bit of a blessing in disguise. Just as Jesus said, chemical castration will give you the same effect as being cut, without doing anything irreversible. You can be a eunuch even without cutting. And discontinue the medication and you'll be back the way you were.
___________
Anyway, I'm going to stop right there, because there's something I consider more important to watch out for. After castration, watch out for depression! I had some issues that I thought I had entirely dealt with. I now realize, after talking about this whole subject with friends from Form Media, and here in this thread, that I still have some demons. And these demons are empowered by societies refusal to accept this whole subject. Societies heterosexual, hyper-mascline/hyper-femanine role models and views.
When I tried going to my doctor at 17, I was offered a course of psyhotherapy that my parents forced me into, to "help me deal with my sexual issues". I was sick. I am sick. This is where these bad thoughts come in. This is what gives those demons power.
It is not normal to want to be castrated, is it? It is worth thinking about this for a moment. I don't say this as a negative thing. You know what you want. I know what I wanted. I wonder what makes us feel this way? I don't know. I suspect the answer is like asking someone why they are gay, or transgendered. Maybe we are all sick in some way? Defective and lacking as human beings. Like a broken mechanical part of society that doesn't function as expected. Maybe our only place - besides the very rim of society - is in a mental institute, or the kilns of Auschwitz-Birkenau?
__________
Anyway, normally I would edit everything above this line. It was just my thoughts and feelings transposed into words. And I suppose I just wanted people to know I have been watching this thread. I just wish I could be more use to UKBoy right now. I hope - in a strange way - by airing my deamons I hope to at least show what my problems were dealing with it.
I certainly wish you the best of luck, however it happens. Just please try and make sure you are safe.
AND PLEASE try the chemical route before doing any surgery!