Chris I wish you all the best in your journey. As BudleyBare said "this is a wonderful web site with really great people" and I could not agree more.

Thanks all, again--this is exactly why I was asking for advice and support. After conversing with a few of you for about the past week, I've decided that I need to figure out what's causing this asexuality FIRST (seek a diagnosis or, alternatively, establish a chain of causation), before I mess around with lowering my testosterone, if at all. If it's something such as a hormonal imbalance, then I'd probably be much better off correcting that directly and living as normal a life as possible. That would be a hell of a journey in itself. Other curable biological causes would go into this category as well.

On the other hand, if this is solely due to something that's biological and incurable (say, Asperger's, which causes the brain to be "wired" in strange ways), then it's time to put more thought into what I really want and don't want and proceed slowly. But either way, I need to know what's going on biologically and mentally, lest I make a huge mistake like many people have before me.

Either way, as the header of this thread suggests, I'm in for some kind of journey; it will be long and slow. I don't know where the destination is, but it will be quite interesting. Thanks a lot for all of your support, and as things progress, I'll keep you updated.

All the best,

-Chris

Chris, as a eunuch that became that way due to cancer, I can tell you hormone balancing is a very tricky business. Be prepared for tons of blood tests, your doctor will be watching everything from your red blood count to your PSA scores if she does decide to put you one HRT. I don't see where you mentioned your level was 500 above, only saw that number from Mrt, did you mention it yourself? 500 is within the range, but remember the range is applied to men 18-80 years of age. Following my castration, my level was 270 with no balls at all...believe it or not, that is at the very bottom of "normal". I have found I don't "feel" right unless my levels are around 700-900, but then I have to watch the RBC count (to many red blood cells can lead to dangerious clotting). I am 34, so within the same age as you, and was castrated at 30. I have never been that sexually inclined (driven) I guess, and still am not, but when I do have sex I am able to do just fine. When I masturbate, I have very hard erections, and orgasm completely normally. This all leads me to believe 2 things, one you are simply not a sexually driven man, and 2 your T-Levels are subpar. Correcting your t-levels will not necessary change your attitudes or desire for sex. But, by having more firm erections even with masturbation, you may feel more confident about it when it does happen...this might be holding you back to some degree. I wish you the best, and if you ever need to talk, I've been down this road, feel free to contact me.

Chris "Dont do it!".im 27 and was not castrated by choice.i would give anything to atleast have 1 testicle!u said u want to maintain a healthy lifestyle..well that all will change if u get castrated!tiredness,fatigue,hotflashes,mood swings, and hormones goin every other way.now im different from your situation because i am attracted to women physically and mentally and would say im a sexually active man(when i build the confidence to have it).bottom line dont do it! i see alot of people do it for other reasons but it dont seem like u fall in them lines!im shore theres other ways u can go about this without cuttin them! - good luck

hardlivin (imported) wrote: Sun Nov 05, 2006 11:03 pm Chris "Dont do it!".im 27 and was not castrated by choice.i would give anything to atleast have 1 testicle!u said u want to maintain a healthy lifestyle..well that all will change if u get castrated!tiredness,fatigue,hotflashes,mood swings, and hormones goin every other way.now im different from your situation because i am attracted to women physically and mentally and would say im a sexually active man(when i build the confidence to have it).bottom line dont do it! i see alot of people do it for other reasons but it dont seem like u fall in them lines!im shore theres other ways u can go about this without cuttin them! - good luck

How about telling the rest of us how you came to lose your testicles?

My Left Testicle Was Removed When I Was 3 And My Right One Twisted And Shrunk When I Was 13