Moment of Truth

[Robby (imported)]

farharbour,

From reading all the responses, you can see there are many differences amongst the Eunuch crowd. We all have different reasons for being. Most of us think of ourselves as normal with a slight tweek. Just don't tell anyone about our tweeks...

Take care my friend,

[JeffEunuch (imported)]

I have have wonder what thoughts eunuchs had when they see the last cord cut.. the moment of truth so to speak.. when they know they are no longer men, but will be a eunuch for the rest of his life... Do any of the eunuch remember what they were thinking at that moment ? Relief, anxiety, regret, joy, deep satisfaction ?

Good question! I felt an ecstasy like no other I'd ever felt previously, not because I was no longer male, but because I was finally being rid of the organs that'd caused a lot o' physical pain and on which I'd focused an incredible lot o' psychological energy - whether to have them severed or not? I also got an incredible erection and went flaccid only when the incision in the sac was being closed. It seems the local anesthetic had worn out, and I was feeling the needle doing the suturing. It was good that this phase of the surgical procedure was only about 5 minutes.

While I was feeling pain for about 3-5 hours afterward, I've since been impressed with how comfortable my crotch felt. It was only after my balls had been severed that I fully realised how much pain I'd just acustomed myself to. Of course, only someone with a lot o' scar tissue could have this latter feeling.

As others have pointed out, I am just as male as before castration. I just can no longer reproduce.

[tugon (imported)]

I am not sure if I allowed myself to be happy at that moment. My first sense of celebration was when I was completely healed. I think the fear of something happening that would cause me to need care, at the hospital where I worked, kept me from enjoying the new me. I think my initial thoughts were now I need to start taking care of myself.

I still celebrate and enjoy being a eunuch. I consider myself as a eunuch who presents as a man. I never felt male and so eunuch fits me best.

[thefraj (imported)]

I was prettymuch out of it besides I think the biggest moment of my life happened the night before when Bubba and I decided that we we

re inseporable.

Awww so adorable :hearthrob

I do think that people who go through with Orchidectomy and do not use hormones ar

e different. But.... Anyhow, a question I am pondering. I agree with you too. My feelings are, that a man without testicles who takes T will likely still feel, act and have all the attributes of a man. Someone without T is different, will feel and likely behave differently

. For me - what makes the difference is whether or not the brain is under the influence of testosterone.

Thanks gentleman.. I did not mean to imply that eunuc

hs are not manly or feminine, but physically and physiologically they are not the same as an intact man.. Hehe, no worries Farhabour I'm actually a little flattered at the suggestion I have "escaped being male", and I don't mind being called femanine. It's definitely one of my few positive attributes

I know I am different, and people who know me often assume (from my bubbly nature!) that I'm gay. Children often seem to respond a little better to me than male collegues at work, and I consider myself very forutnate when girls often confide in me as an 'ally' when they are having boy troubles or life troubles.

One close friend is going through a very difficult phase in her life with her boyfriend right now, and it was really nice for her to let herself have a rant with me at the negative aspects of guys It was only after a few minutes when she suddenly apologised to me. I don't know why she did, and I told her there was no need to. (There were no guys around!) What struck me, was she quickly said: : "I don't include you in all that! You're different. Your gentle.". Of course I giggled and thanked her.

Anyway, getting back to the main topic:

I have have wonder what thoughts eunuchs had when they see the last cord cut

I don't know. I certainly wasn't over-happy or over-sad. It was just something I'd always wanted, something I felt I had to do. If I r

emember, I was actually wondering what was for dinner . It was so matter-of-

factly. And yet - looking back - sometimes I wonder if someone died that day. And someone was born. I wonder if the catapillar became a butterfly.

I think my initial thoughts were now I need to start taking care of myself

[kristoff]

I am 50/50.

I still miss my Huevo.

Some think I don't belong on this forum.

What can I tell You.H. The moment of truth.

Well at least half of you belongs.....

[mrt (imported)]

MRT,

I have to agree with you. My testicles were removed and I am still a man. Some may call me a Eunuch while others call me a man.

Most importantly, I consider myself a man.

Take care,

Hi Robby: Thanks I am pondering this as of late. The whole ritual / fetish type thing makes the whole thing sooo.... complicated. I guess that since this is a large part of the sex organs it "has" to be sexual. When I was in the dumps hormonaly I was a different type of critter. Things with a healthy level are much simplier "and for me anyway" better. I've read accounts of men who played with hormones and took mega doses and turned in "maniac / assholes" and that clearly is not my wish. I guess that testicles or not having an average level is my goal. And while a future castration would preclude me from knocking anyone up I don't think that is the only thing that makes a man a man.

And on the same dial if a "man" desires to transition and has SRS and goes on female hormones I frankly think that person IS a woman. I know that some people might disagree but having had a taste of how powerful hormones (or lack of) are in defining me I think it true.

[Robby (imported)]

Hi Robby: Thanks I am pondering this as of late. The whole ritual / fetish type thing makes the whole thing sooo.... complicated. I guess that since this is a large part of the sex organs it "has" to be sexual. When I was in the dumps hormonaly I was a different type of critter. Things with a healthy level are much simplier "and for me anyway" better. I've read accounts of men who played with hormones and took mega doses and turned in "maniac / assholes" and that clearly is not my wish. I guess that testicles or not having an average level is my goal. And while a future castration would preclude me from knocking anyone up I don't think that is the only thing that makes a man a man.

And on the same dial if a "man" desires to transition and has SRS and goes on female hormones I frankly think that person IS a woman. I know that some people might disagree but having had a taste of how powerful hormones (or lack of) are in defining me I think it true.

MRT,

Again I agree with you. Don't you find it interesting how one equates being a man and knocking someone up... Life is too grand for such simplistic puritanical take on mankind.

Knocking someone up is not a consideration of mine when measuring the deeds of mankind. Children knock up the females, men don't. Men support, nurture, honor and love the person of their choosing. I've heard it said, "Men are men and in Wyoming the sheep know it."

Take care and hope your desires come true.

[mrt (imported)]

MRT,

Again I agree with you. Don't you find it interesting how one equates being a man and knocking someone up... Life is too grand for such simplistic puritanical take on mankind.

Knocking someone up is not a consideration of mine when measuring the deeds of mankind. Children knock up the females, men don't. Men support, nurture, honor and love the person of their choosing. I've heard it said, "Men are men and in Wyoming the sheep know it."

Take care and hope your desires come true.

Hi Robbie:

Its good to talk again. Yes, I agree about "knocking people up" the children who do this are not yet "men." I think the thing about hormones is how much they "wire" people (Me anyhow) Without enough I'm not even close to being who I am now. And now, that I'm on full time HRT my testes which were not doing much are doing almost nothing now. *Other then some serious aches and pains. I'm coming to some conclusions about the folks who desire castration for some sort of ritual castration fantasy. But like my thoughts on people who dig bondage its probably too general and simplistic. I think that "some" get interested in castration due to feelings of low self worth as "men" they maybe so disgusted with male bahaviour *and there are certainly some reasons to be. That they want to quit the "club." I equate it to the Dog Humping the leg syndrome. No one wants to watch that!

Oh well. Amateur Shrink I'm not. It does bring to mind many interesting thoughts but as to them being "rite" I realy can't know.

[Kangan (imported)]

Different strokes for different folks. Different cuts for different eunuchs.

Everyone on here is here for a different reason. Some are transgender types, others are fetishists, and still others like myself merely want their sex drive diminished.

I'd have to say that our feelings about castration will be quite different as a result of this diversity. When it comes to sex, humans manage to add all sorts of extra emotions to what is otherwise just another biological function.

It is that emotional content that makes us what we are. So one eunuch will feel like a man and another will feel like a woman, or a neuter. Testosterone plays a big role, but I suspect that our brain is what really governs us.

[mrt (imported)]

Different strokes for different folks. Different cuts for different eunuchs.

Everyone on here is here for a different reason. Some are transgender types, others are fetishists, and still others like myself merely want their sex drive diminished.

I'd have to say that our feelings about castration will be quite different as a result of this diversity. When it comes to sex, humans manage to add all sorts of extra emotions to what is otherwise just another biological function.

It is that emotional content that makes us what we are. So one eunuch will feel like a man and another will feel like a woman, or a neuter. Testosterone plays a big role, but I suspect that our brain is what really governs us.

Well I've had that chance at feeling no desire to be sexual. For me it was just awful. Mrs T was not a happy camper and along with lack of sex drive and no erections (night or day) was a loss of energy, anxiety issues, mental haze and more. You can have it!