Decided to do it

[Studlover (imported)]

I believed you. Congratulations. I remember when I ordered my first batch in Jan 1, 2004. It was head rush when I took the first pill. I don't believe two years of the meds have hurt me. It has positive. I no longer have any interest in porn. I am so much calmer than my whole life. I have changed in so many ways over the last two years. Even though you are on Depo, you'll find the same things. I wish you the best.

ONeBallBoi, thanks for your support and encouragement. I already am getting a head rush. I am so excited about this I can't tell you.

I have been on the EA for several years now and for some reason this week I decided to take the plunge.

It is going to be so nice to classify myself now as Eunuch or Quasi Eunuch if I am on chemicals, but regardless, I will consider myself a Eunuch.

The porn and unbelievable sexual fantasies keep me from sleeping and getting work done.

I wish the meds were here now. I plan on celebrating!

Studlover

[Studlover (imported)]

I believed you. Congratulations. I remember when I ordered my first batch in Jan 1, 2004. It was head rush when I took the first pill. I don't believe two years of the meds have hurt me. It has positive. I no longer have any interest in porn. I am so much calmer than my whole life. I have changed in so many ways over the last two years. Even though you are on Depo, you'll find the same things. I wish you the best.

OneBallBoi, Actually, the reason I posted the receipt was for two reasons:

1. To let people know that I am not a Eunuch wannabe and this is not a

fantasy.

2. To let the world know I AM GOING TO BE A EUNUCH!

Just think in two weeks I can change my profile to EUNUCH.

Studlover

[EricaAnn (imported)]

Hi Studlover,

Congratulations on your decision to proceed! I sincerely hope that you will enjoy the experience of becoming and being a Eunuch. Welcome!

I have never missed the testosterone. I have become so much calmer and far less aggressive in so many ways without it and my spouse feels very much the same way.

From my own research, Depo is an good route to go in order to achieve your goal. My reason for not going with it when I was chemically castrated was that I have, what you might say as, a very healthy respect.....alright, fear of needles.

Enjoy and feel free to celebrate!

[madscientist1 (imported)]

Here is the full receipt guys:

Dear (I omitted by name),

Your order was received and will be processed by the next business day. After we get approval of your specified payment option, you will be contacted via email with the following information:

Invoice #: 466539000304

Date: 04/29/2006

Bill To

San Antonio TX

United States of America Phone: Fax:

Email: xxx@sbcglobal.net

Ship To

San Antonio TX 78229-5997

United States of America Phone:

Fax:

Email: xxx@sbcglobal.net

Paid By:

Due Date: 05/14/2006 Ship Via: International Airmail

Ship Date:

Tracking #:

SKU Name Price Qty Amount

3 DEPO Depo Provera 150mg 1ml 3 Vials (Preloaded syringe included)

65.00 USD 1 65.00 USD --------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I'm sure we all trust that you actually ordered the DP. Allow 2-3 weeks for delivery. However, the REAL dose is as follows: One shot of 150mgs. every week until your libido disappears and then one dose per month. I have been on it for ober 4 years.

[Studlover (imported)]

I'm sure we all trust that you actually ordered the DP. Allow 2-3 weeks for delivery. However, the REAL dose is as follows: One shot of 150mgs. every week until your libido disappears and then one dose per month. I have been on it for ober 4 years.

madscientist, well, like I said, I know ya'll believed me but it was my excitement to tell the world.

I was thinking that would be the correct dosage. Any difference in emotional health in four years?

Studlover

[Studlover (imported)]

in my experience 50 mg in a month

a shot of DP 50mg is effective for 30 days therapy

a shot of DP 150 mg is effective for 3 months

What I was advised was one 150mg per week for 3 weeks, then once per month. Guess everyone is different.

Studlover

[madscientist1 (imported)]

madscientist, well, like I said, I know ya'll believed me but it was my excitement to tell the world.

I was thinking that would be the correct dosage. Any difference in emotional health in four years?

Studlover

Absolutely! I no longer have a libido to distract me and am loving it. No more worries about "tent pitching" either.

[Studlover (imported)]

Absolutely! I no longer have a libido to distract me and am loving it. No more worries about "tent pitching" either.

I'm looking forward to it. No libido to distract me is my goal.

Studlover

[BudleyBare (imported)]

I'm looking forward to it. No libido to distract me is my goal.

Studlover

Studlover, I am finding your postings here to be very interesting. You've indicated that you are a body builder, that your goal is no libido, that you eventually may have your scrotum removed, and a few other interesting aspects about your journey. I feel that we (specifically you and me, and perhaps to include others here on EA) are on similar journeys; they are for sure not parallel, but simiilar. For instance, I lost one nut in emergency surgery last December, and may loose the other in the near future; you are doing the chemical approach.

I have experienced new feelings (e.g., small amounts of "hot flashes") since December's surgery, and that has provided insight into an entirely new perspective about life, sex, erections, testosterone, etc., and colletively that has awakened me to new insight into things from my past as well as opportunities for better things yet to come. I know very little about your feelings, and would like to know more. For instance, I have always thought that body builders were about big muscles, big balls (aggressiveness), machismo, and narcissim. That obviously is not the situation as I read your postings. Boy have I got a lot to learn. You seem like a well balanced dude in control of his life.

The reason for this message is to not only thank you for helping me, but also to support you in your journey (if possible and desired). I am not singling you out, nor am I discounting others on this web site. Collectively, this relatively short post-emergency surgery period of my life (in my 60s) has been an incredible experience for me. It is like I went through that "portal" on the Stargate series, and WOW!!! Wonders of wonders. Where have I been all my life?

For me, I need to move slowly. What I am talking and thinking about is irreversible, and with some degree of relatively unpredictible consequences. I know that. As an example, it is beginning to appear that there may be some elective aspect to my next round of surgery (later this month, or perhaps June'ish). There will be surgery, but it is not clear whether the remaining ball must go. I have already told my doctor that I would just as soon have it go, and we have a lot more talking to do. He used a term "ethical conduct" which was startling to me, but then he said I will do what you want me to do, as long as it doesn't cause harm. I do not want him to get in trouble (he is not only my doctor but also a very good friend), but since I live outside of the USA, there is not the AMA/FDA and other sledge hammers that can crush him.

For now, if I do loose my remainiing nut, it is very clear to me that the scrotum remains, at least for the immediate future. I have this forum to thank for helping get clear on that.

I'm rambling now, and so will sign off.

[Studlover (imported)]

Studlover, I am finding your postings here to be very interesting. You've indicated that you are a body builder, that your goal is no libido, that you eventually may have your scrotum removed, and a few other interesting aspects about your journey. I feel that we (specifically you and me, and perhaps to include others here on EA) are on similar journeys; they are for sure not parallel, but simiilar. For instance, I lost one nut in emergency surgery last December, and may loose the other in the near future; you are doing the chemical approach.

I have experienced new feelings (e.g., small amounts of "hot flashes") since December's surgery, and that has provided insight into an entirely new perspective about life, sex, erections, testosterone, etc., and colletively that has awakened me to new insight into things from my past as well as opportunities for better things yet to come. I know very little about your feelings, and would like to know more. For instance, I have always thought that body builders were about big muscles, big balls (aggressiveness), machismo, and narcissim. That obviously is not the situation as I read your postings. Boy have I got a lot to learn. You seem like a well balanced dude in control of his life.

The reason for this message is to not only thank you for helping me, but also to support you in your journey (if possible and desired). I am not singling you out, nor am I discounting others on this web site. Collectively, this relatively short post-emergency surgery period of my life (in my 60s) has been an incredible experience for me. It is like I went through that "portal" on the Stargate series, and WOW!!! Wonders of wonders. Where have I been all my life?

For me, I need to move slowly. What I am talking and thinking about is irreversible, and with some degree of relatively unpredictible consequences. I know that. As an example, it is beginning to appear that there may be some elective aspect to my next round of surgery (later this month, or perhaps June'ish). There will be surgery, but it is not clear whether the remaining ball must go. I have already told my doctor that I would just as soon have it go, and we have a lot more talking to do. He used a term "ethical conduct" which was startling to me, but then he said I will do what you want me to do, as long as it doesn't cause harm. I do not want him to get in trouble (he is not only my doctor but also a very good friend), but since I live outside of the USA, there is not the AMA/FDA and other sledge hammers that can crush him.

For now, if I do loose my remainiing nut, it is very clear to me that the scrotum remains, at least for the immediate future. I have this forum to thank for helping get clear on that.

I'm rambling now, and so will sign off.

BudleyBear,

Thank your for your support. I am on a lunch break and will not have much time to respond to all of your comments.

However, if I may quote the text of Carl Orff's "Carmina Burana" which says, "I am the Captain of my Ship" then I can definetly say I am a man who is in control of my life and do feel well-balanced. I no longer question why a man would want to eliminate that which supposedly makes him a "man." There are so many other factors that can achieve "manhood."

As for as having the scrotum removed, at the present time I am not opting for physical castration. I think one reason is that I like what I have physically. But the overcharged libido has caused me to not be as disciplined in my profession as I would like to be, albeit, it may lead to greater creativity.

Bodybuilders? Well, it depends on the individual. I guess when I was in my 20's and 30's it was totally for the muscles and to see how "much I could get" and did get, mind you! But now the muscles are another statement that define part of the person who I am.

As for as a person having the scrotum removed that certainly is an individualistic decision. In *my* case it would be removed as I believe that castration is castration and means just that.

I have no idea what it will be like in another week/month. I am looking forward to it if nothing more to see the new personality. But if it is something would cause weight gain or extreme emotions then I will cease as I am a teacher and can't risk any type of emotion that could damage a student.

Studlover