If you feel the way you talk castration is the answer.
For myself its been a year and a half and your mentioned thoughts will go away if you let them go.
Currently I am enjoying life with the new feelings castration has given me.
One factor outside castration is keeping a positive attitude that is neccssary to repel depression and enjoying life on life's terms. Enjoy what you have every day regardless of what other people say. I don't have a lot of money and that doesn't help anyway, except for food, rent,etc., learn to budget $$ and have FUN !!!
Tome
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