Re: A Mans Right to Choose
Posted: Thu Mar 25, 2004 8:28 pm
Thank you for your comments, I appreciate your taking the time to reply. I have a certain understanding of the ocd thing, and that has been presented to me before, although I can't say I've pursued it to an end. I'm not aware of any other compulsions I may have.
My epiphany here, or whatever it is, is that for the first time in forever, I had two weeks or whatever of not 'thinking' about masturbating. I only really thought of it to think of why I wasn't thinking about it! That's why this whole thing is like being hit over the head for me. I know I can probably stop physically stop doing what I'm doing. At the worst I can be restrained. But can I stop thinking about it? I can't cut the grass without thinking about masturbating! I can stare at red lights and think about it. I don't know what the answer is. My doctor just brushes it off the times I explained as best I could to him. He makes it like I'm stupid. I'll check into stuff, but I don't feel like seeing a shrink right now. I saw them when I was a kid. For what? I don't feel depressed, I don't feel sad. I just can't stop thinking about sex.
And don't get me wrong. I'm not pushing for a castration here. I like playing with my balls. But I'll be darned if it hasn't been running through me head since all this started. If that's what it would take to feel like I did for those two weeks, it would be a hard call right now. That's why it's frustrating to see on this baord that it appears NO doctors seem to be willing to entertain at least chemical castration to some degree. Why don't they think that people can have a legitimate libido problem? Isn't that what hypersexual is? Isn't that thinking about it all the time? What do they do for thinking about it all the time?
My epiphany here, or whatever it is, is that for the first time in forever, I had two weeks or whatever of not 'thinking' about masturbating. I only really thought of it to think of why I wasn't thinking about it! That's why this whole thing is like being hit over the head for me. I know I can probably stop physically stop doing what I'm doing. At the worst I can be restrained. But can I stop thinking about it? I can't cut the grass without thinking about masturbating! I can stare at red lights and think about it. I don't know what the answer is. My doctor just brushes it off the times I explained as best I could to him. He makes it like I'm stupid. I'll check into stuff, but I don't feel like seeing a shrink right now. I saw them when I was a kid. For what? I don't feel depressed, I don't feel sad. I just can't stop thinking about sex.
And don't get me wrong. I'm not pushing for a castration here. I like playing with my balls. But I'll be darned if it hasn't been running through me head since all this started. If that's what it would take to feel like I did for those two weeks, it would be a hard call right now. That's why it's frustrating to see on this baord that it appears NO doctors seem to be willing to entertain at least chemical castration to some degree. Why don't they think that people can have a legitimate libido problem? Isn't that what hypersexual is? Isn't that thinking about it all the time? What do they do for thinking about it all the time?