manc-wannabe (imported) wrote: Tue Dec 30, 2003 3:19 pm Thanks for your reply. Just a few points here:
1) How and why do you think I am obsessed?? Yes, I am interested in being in castrated and like many on the board (I think) this interest began at puberty - 13/14 in my case, but to call this interest/desire an obsession would be harsh to say the least. I would be interested to understand your reasoning here
2) I would say that I am not past puberty completly, and so the effects may be different - i.e I have not fully developed facial hair, and physcially I have not stopped growing yet - from the best of my knowledge, you only completly stop growing at 25 - which is when many here reccommend is the cut of point for castration before which it is not recommended.
I am aware that several people regret thier decision and I intend to complete my research and understand my decision before/if I follow through and speak to one person who does regret it and who lives near me. I know - it is not to be taken lightly
MW
If you are eighteen, you are long past puberty, but you will persist in developments your body started in puberty. You continue on these paths during adolescence and into early maturity. For example, your frontal lobes will develop by the time you are twenty-one.
Whether you are obsessed or not, I will not hazard to say. Did you mention obsession at all? Late teenage years are times when many of us have or had a lot of sexual desire. Is it really that bad? Maybe, it is. However, I doubt that feeling desire and enjoying sexual pleasure are bad experiences. I always found them pretty wonderful.
On reflection, I might have considered chemical castration had I known it was possible or if it had been possible a long time ago.
Talking to a therapist who has experience working with those who have problems related to sexuality and gender simply sounds prudent. That does not mean that you suffer from some disorder or have a problem. It is just taking care to look carefully before you make a decision.
There are people who will mutilate you without wincing and without regret regardless what is good for you. You do not seem to take this decision lightly. Just being here indicates that. However, take your time and survey the terrain.
Because of the side-effects of medication that I needed, I lived over a decade with little libido. I thought that I enjoyed not having it. I suppose that I even did enjoy the loss. However, I now realize that I did suffer loss and that loss hurts.
I believe that I understand many of the benefits of low libido. However, take care. Sometimes, you do not get to go back when you make changes.