Hello from London

[marsma]

Just like you, I've been fantasizing about being castrated since 14 or so. I like the idea towards others too. But I wouldn't do it if I had a loved one, but, since I'm a loner/forever alone, at least for now, I might do it one day to shut down sexual desire. I always wanted to be a father and to enjoy a sex life, but I don't seem to capable of achieving that. I feel like I didn't deserve manhood, or testosterone or balls, anything like that.

Summing, for me it's a fetish, a mean and a punishment/lamentation.

Giving up your sexuality because you don't feel worthy of being a man. I think that isn't a healthy reason to pursue this.

Will turning off your sex drive alleviate your desire to be in a relationship, or will it just confirm that you aren't worthy of the life you obviously want?

[Eunuchtobe24]

I’ve wanted it since I was about 14, I just don’t identify with my balls I guess and the idea of not having them turns me on a lot too admittedly. How about you?

Just like you, I've been fantasizing about being castrated since 14 or so. I like the idea towards others too. But I wouldn't do it if I had a loved one, but, since I'm a loner/forever alone, at least for now, I might do it one day to shut down sexual desire. I always wanted to be a father and to enjoy a sex life, but I don't seem to capable of achieving that. I feel like I didn't deserve manhood, or testosterone or balls, anything like that.

Summing, for me it's a fetish, a mean and a punishment/lamentation.

Interesting, a lot of guys I’ve spoken to started thinking about it around that age, like what Wheelyfixed said. If I find someone to settle down with I think I will discuss it with them. I’m bisexual, so if I settle down with a man it may not be such a big deal possibly.