I used Androcur to test drive chemical castration and found that I loved the lack of sex drive. This was especially apparent when I stopped taking it for about a month. The return of my libido was strong and I found it emotionally disturbing. I was just happier and more at ease with the world without T. After about 6 months I realized that I wanted to make the changes permanent, so I starting CaCl2 injections. I later added E and progesterone and felt even better. I surprised myself by seeing my breasts develop and loving that too.

Just as men have historically repressed women, T actively suppresses the feminine traits that all men have naturally. Looking back, I don't at all regret my loss of sex drive (neither does my wife!). My male sex drive became hideous to me. There are a lot of men who see getting erect and shoving their penis into a convenient hole and ejaculating into it as the highest form of manhood. There's so much more to being human than sex.

I treasure my feminine side and am happy to inhabit a body with more balance between the masculine and feminine. I feel much less a man and much more a woman and it's beautiful.

This; this is what I want to rid myself of. This barbaric desire to fuck women. I admire their beauty but can't stop thinking of sex. Honestly the concept of being chemically castrated and nuking my libido sounds like a dream I hope depo will help me accomplish.

I’m married and my wife and I fantasize about me becoming her eunuch servant. After a lot of play, I purchased a 150 mg Depo shot earlier this year from the site mentioned. After lots of play, we got worked up enough one evening to use it. Right afterward, I was very horny thinking about what had just taken place. That feeling lasted for several days until the idea wore off. After a little over 2 weeks, I noticed I was instigating sexual interaction with her much less. She often has me wash her in the shower and I normally get worked up and push my penis on her and try to get her to relent and give me sex. I noticed after a few weeks that she was having me wash her and then dismissing me. Normally, they would have been very difficult to accept, but it stopped feeling like a big deal. She might even have me kneel and masturbate to see if I could achieve and erection before instructing me to stop and dismissing me. Yes, I could still achieve and erection during the whole cycle (she was disappointed by that) but I definitely didn’t feel capable of an erection without her encouragement. I still wanted it (to a lesser degree than normal) but it was very muted. According to her, I was much more mellow during the 3 weeks or so that it was in full effect. I admit that it was fun having my desire return after awhile and then acknowledging that she could now take my sexual desires away if I pester her with unwanted sexual fantasies etc. I’ve purchased 300mg and we plan on having another trial soon. Let me know if you have any other questions. I’m happy to share my experience.

I forgot to talk about side effects…. I’ll start by saying that any side effect I did have was temporary. In all honesty, I kind of freaked out internally about what had happened. I was most concerned that I might begin to develop breast tissue and I did NOT want any permanent feminization other than perhaps some penis shrinkage. Anyway, the first side effect I had was anxiety, but I attribute totally to my state of mind and uncertainty. Because I was so anxious about it, I became hyper aware of any physical changes I thought might be occurring. At about two weeks in, I thought my nipples might have become more sensitive. At this point, I’m not actually sure if they did or if that was all in my head, but either way, that sensation faded and there weren’t any physical changes. I did experience tiredness. It wasn’t too extreme, but I definitely wanted to sit down and do nothing when I got home. Prior to the injection, I was working on a large landscaping project in my yard, and I put that on pause for the duration. It wasn’t debilitating, but it wasn’t extremely pleasant feeling tired. Either way, that seemed to disappear about 5 weeks in. According to my wife, I was much less argumentative during the peak period. Apparently she intentionally did things that would have set me off normally and I just shrugged it off. I honestly told her I don’t even recall anything like that, but she just laughed and said “exactly”.

Just recently placed an order through in house. Going to try 150 at a time vs the recommended 300 initial dose. @curious2kn0w, have you tried the 300 dose yet?

So I had planned a 6 month depo Provera trial about 4 years ago. Ordered from inhouse and started with a double dose and then one dose every 3 weeks. It took about 3-4 days after the first 3 week dose to really feel the effects. First, my libido basically dropped to near nothing. It was actually a little depressing at first, but then very, very satisfying. Second, I felt a little less upbeat. I wasn't depressed or sad, but I wasn't my normal, goofy self. My family thought I was depressed because I wasn't smiling as much as normal, but I assured them I was fine. I cried much, much easier, often times at things that normally wouldn't even phase me. A friend of mine passed away while I was on it, and that was particularly difficult to deal with. But I kept up my decently physical job and that helped keep me going.

A few other things. Not being distracted by a sex drive, I was much more productive. I didn't look at porn or masturbate, so I had an abundance of time to get my office/personal work done. I also noticed I became much more helpful around the house. Like, I actually wanted to help with chores. Cooking, dishes, laundry, etc. I also slept surprisingly well. The first sign I felt when I stopped taking the DP was my difficulty sleeping returning. I actually managed to masturbate around the 3 month mark (I'd gone almost 2 months without masturbating at that point), and it was literally the most disappointing orgasm I ever had. There was only a very weak sensation and I just remember feeling ridiculous for making a mess. I did deal with very minor hot flashes, but there was only ever 1 or 2 where I was truly unbearably uncomfortable.

I ended up stopping the trial around the 3 1/2 month mark because I started seeing someone. It took several months to fully recover, and honestly, I don't think my sex drive ever made it back to 100%, but I don't mind. I'm honestly looking forward to eventually being physically castrated someday after going through chemical. It fit me really well.

During that time we're you able to become erect at all? I've received the meds I ordered but waiting for the right time to take the first shot.

I stopped getting erections around 4-5 weeks in. Could I have gotten them? IDK, I had absolutely no interest in it. I will say, when I masturbated at the 3 month mark, I only got maybe 60% hard.

I was on Fimagon for 14 months for Prostate Cancer ADT. During this time my breast started to grow, I had hot flashes, calcium depletion, but the biggest issue with males that remove all T from their body is the cognitive issues that you will face. Being able to handle 7-12 things on the top of your mind like we can with T will go completely away and down to 1 which you will need to focus on to complete. Our bodies need T per our chemical makeup. So yes there will be no sex drive, no erection, no energy. You will gain weight and loose muscle mass and begin to become weaker physically, all hair growth will cease. You will be like most men that are over 40. My estrogen level was 2000 with 0 T. So these are the things that you can expect to occur. This was my personal experience after 14 months.

While I have not read them all however emstuff1’s description of a true chemical castration is the most accurate I have read in quite some time. All of the symptoms described can be derived from 500mg / Depo PER WEEK will do it however some more readily available kits (Syringe and vial) come in only 400mg single use / single dose kits. After about three months - My experience - identical as described by emstuff1. What's really important is to realize you will suffer an extreme loss of processing power from your mind. Not only will you be impotent, won't feel the need for sex or masturbation but concentration and the ability to stay focused takes much greater effort than what I would previously considered effortless. The loss of stamina and cognitive abilities are real and as Kitchkinett18 accurately warned, you may not ever return to 100% the way you were before Depo - Your mileage may vary but I will say if you are considering castration, the depo experience is very real however a weekly dosage of 150mg = kits used for women's birth control will not achieve the results I have described.

With respect to stamina and fatigue, I personally could not make it through an entire day without a nap.

Depo was really quite the same as an Orchiectomy. If it sounds like I’m dissing castration, I’m not. I’m certainly glad those little suckers are gone – Really don’t want them back and certainly don’t miss embarrassing, random erections that stayed with me long after my teen years.