neweunuch (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 30, 2020 4:23 pm Thank you for the welcome. It took a few tries to register, but perseverance paid off! Reading the various forums here, the accounts and experiences, is what finally pushed me over the edge. I truly wanted to, but taking that first step to call was more difficult than I thought it wouldbe!

I have always disliked the look of testicles and scrotum. It just looks like God forgot something and shoved a big wad of chewing gum between Man’s legs. But, they had a purpose!

Seven years ago I was put on HRT for low T. Dr told me that testicle shrinkage was a side effect. This became VERY noticable after about 3 years. This, along with my beta-male status in my marriage, got me seriously contemplating and researching castration. The more I read, the more convinced I became.

About 4 mos ago I began talking with my wife about it. She was a bit shocked at first, but once I pointed out examples of my “less than male” traits, she began to accept that I am not fully a male. A eunuch, in my mind, may appear male but is something unique!!

Once the procedure is complete, we want to investigate other hormone options. When the levels drop it has a serious cognizant effects. But we dont want the male effects of the T. Nor are we interested in becoming feminine. So, other options!

neweunuch (imported) wrote: Fri Jul 03, 2020 6:30 am My balls have definitely atrophied. Very noticably! Once I began to notice the shrinkage, that was when I began considering surgical castration. As I am already a functionally castrated with my shrunken testes hanging there, the beta male confirmation is exactly what I/we are looking for. Besides, as I initially stated, I think the appearance of the scrotum, even with intact, functioning testicles, is extremely unappealing.

As for my wife, we have been in a Hotwife/cuckold relationship for years. Once I explained the connection between a cuckold and a beta male, the pieces fell into place fairly easily. Now our conversation have turned to the future POST surgery. We have played and ultimately lived a male chastity LS for the past 2 1/2 years. We both desire an impotent life for me. To achieve that we plan to enlist the aid of an endocrinologist. We just need to determine exactly what other traits we desire. I still want to outwardly present as a male, have no interest in a penectomy, but prefer my penis to shrink and remain sexually useless. Behavioural modifications associated with estrogen are desired as well. As I said, we have alot to discuss still!!