neweunuch (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 30, 2020 4:23 pm Thank you for the welcome. It took a few tries to register, but perseverance paid off! Reading the various forums here, the accounts and experiences, is what finally pushed me over the edge. I truly wanted to, but taking that first step to call was more difficult than I thought it wouldbe!
I have always disliked the look of testicles and scrotum. It just looks like God forgot something and shoved a big wad of chewing gum between Man’s legs. But, they had a purpose!
Seven years ago I was put on HRT for low T. Dr told me that testicle shrinkage was a side effect. This became VERY noticable after about 3 years. This, along with my beta-male status in my marriage, got me seriously contemplating and researching castration. The more I read, the more convinced I became.
About 4 mos ago I began talking with my wife about it. She was a bit shocked at first, but once I pointed out examples of my “less than male” traits, she began to accept that I am not fully a male. A eunuch, in my mind, may appear male but is something unique!!
Once the procedure is complete, we want to investigate other hormone options. When the levels drop it has a serious cognizant effects. But we dont want the male effects of the T. Nor are we interested in becoming feminine. So, other options!
Its sounds like your balls atrophied on the years of being on T and are unlikely to start working again. Maybe you can talk with an endocrinologist about what combination of male and female or eunuch traits you desire and see what might be possible hormonally ? Your balls are not likely putting out anything and are more decorative than functional from now on. It sounds like you enjoy the idea of a beta male confirming his less than male status with a full surgical castration instead of a functional castration with shrunken balls left on ?
How did you get your wife from shocked to not desiring the male effects of T ? You must be very persuasive.