I found it useful to understand my eunuch identity as a nonbinary transgender identity. It is common for trans people to partially detransition and end up happiest on some nonbinary identity.

Check out the Genderbread Person v4.0 Poster, which has independent axes for male/female and for masculine/feminine, so instead of reducing male/masculine and increasing female/feminine to become a woman, you just reduced your male/masculine:

https://www.genderbread.org/resource/ge ... 4-0-poster

To medical providers, I just say, "I have a nonbinary gender identity". This places me under the now well-accepted transgender umbrella. Gender services are now available for nonbinary transgender people ("enbies"). You may be asked for your preferred pronouns, for example "he/him" (the most easily offended enbies use "they/them"). If you still present masculine, you can keep on doing so and nobody will know. You can identify as a eunuch or not. You do not have to disclose your gender identity to anyone. I would tell medical providers the truth because they need to know the details to give me the best healthcare. You might try: "I have a nonbinary gender identity. I have had a bilateral orchidectomy."

As far as I know, the only jobs that you cannot perform after castration are professional sperm donor and Pope. Are you in a country that discriminates against castrated men?

I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart; every single advice was precious.

Hey @AndreaB19,

One further reason for castration could be trauma caused by a "bell clapper deformity".

Most men notice early in life that each testicle stays on its side of the scrotum. It's not possible to move a testicle over to the other side because of the way the testicle is attached. This prevents the chords from getting tangled and strangeling one or both testicles with a loss of blood flow.

This congenital abnormality is present in approximately 12% of males and is bilateral in 40% of cases. The bell clapper deformity allows the testicle to twist spontaneously on the spermatic cord

Full page on Medscape: https://www.medscape.com/answers/203600 ... ar-torsion

With the testicles missing it would be impossible to prove that it wasn't bilateral bell clapper deformity that caused them to be removed.

As for your depression, talk to your doctor about a low dose of testosterone. As long as you don't tell the doctor that you plan to hurt yourself or someone else in the future, they can't break confidentiality. You can walk into a doctor's office and tell them you killed someone a year ago and they can't tell on you but, if you tell them you plan on killing someone in the future, they are legally required to tell.

There are a few exceptions to that rule and one of them is that all gunshot wounds are reportable and so are some sexually transmittable diseases.

Thanks..!

So low testosterone can cause depression..? But I wouldn't want to take testosterone, since I don't want libido...so I must choose "Libido or Depression"..?

AndreaB19 (imported) wrote: Mon Sep 16, 2019 9:57 am Thanks..!

So low testosterone can cause depression..? But I wouldn't want to take testosterone, since I don't want libido...so I must choose "Libido or Depression"..?

There is also possibility of taking low level testosterone or estrogen - not enough to increase libido, but enough to prevent bone problems and possibly depression.

Also - some people here mentioned progesterone, for energy/etc ?

PS. I will always read the whole thread before posting.

TopManFL (imported) wrote: Sun Sep 15, 2019 8:09 am As for your depression, talk to your doctor about a low dose of testosterone. As long as you don't tell the doctor that you plan to hurt yourself or someone else in the future, they can't break confidentiality. You can walk into a doctor's office and tell them you killed someone a year ago and they can't tell on you but, if you tell them you plan on killing someone in the future, they are legally required to tell.

Are you sure it works internationally? I know that it should be true for USA, but for other parts of the world?

I know your having second thoughts on transition and your certainly didn't have your orchie to then go on testosterone but I would give serious consideration to trying Estrogen. Give it a shot for a month and see how you feel. You can still present yourself or ID yourself as male but Estrogen without normal female levels of Testosterone will leave you with a near zero sex drive. *Assuming thats the goal your seeking.

The benefits of Estrogen (In my experience) it clears up mental fog. Helps with depression. You get some energy back and mood improves along with some benifits like increased emotional range. Colors seem brighter and weird I know you probably get a better sense of smell and you won't have to worry about bone issues.

Taking estrogen to remedy the side effects of removing testicular testosterone production is a possibility. Availability depends very much on the medical system you are in. You did say Europe, but not which country. The German system e.g. has no regulations/provisions for cases of "transness" outside the binary (i.e. only knows trans women and trans men, or transsexuality in the classical sense, as the ICD-10 still provides). There are doctors who know about non-binary identities, or are willing to get educated. With a condition of "missing testicles" you can easily get a prescription for testosterone, but it is very difficult to get estrogens.

And, of course, taking estrogen has (individual) side effects, for example possible breast growth (depending on dosage and individual conditions).