Freemefromit (imported) wrote: Wed Feb 06, 2019 2:19 pm You've certainly given me food for thought notsomanly, my goal is to lose or reduce my libido as my wife has lost hers and her physical ability to have sex to cancer, so my libido not just makes me fed up and frustrated. I need to consider if the risk that I might as you describe start to think totally differently which others here have mentioned as well. I don't think the relations with the wife would be helped if there were suddenly two girls in the house! Lol (or maybe they would who knows??) .

notsomanly (imported) wrote: Wed Feb 06, 2019 12:29 pm I was intrigued by physical castration, but needed to try chemical first. Some years ago, however, I first became aware that I hated my body hair and spent a lot of time and effort removing it. I liked the smooth feel, so perhaps that was the first indication that I wanted a more feminine body. I started Androcur to find out how my mind would work without testosterone and with greatly reduced or eliminated libido. I loved the result and the bonus was near total loss of body hair. I liked how it felt to be free of libido, body hair and the mental fog I had with normal testosterone so much that I realized that I never wanted to be dominated by that nasty hormone. At first, I accepted that more feminization was going to happen and was surprised that I loved developing female breasts. So if I wasn't going back on T, the alternative was E and a further feminized body. I've never been happier. I don't know where it will lead from here but have decided to just let the changes happen. That includes changes that I like so far in how my mind works.

GordonGG (imported) wrote: Wed Feb 06, 2019 6:30 pm m there with you NotSoManly. I could have written that. I was so tired of fighting the testosterone driven libido that I started on Spiro in July 18, then discovered that the side effects weren't what I wanted to deal with so added low dose E in Oct 18. I've truly liked what this combination has done for me. Like you I’ve never like body hair and have done a lot of shaving for many years. I love how the E has reduced it a lot. And I don

GordonGG (imported) wrote: Wed Feb 06, 2019 6:30 pm m growing. I'm scheduled for an Orchi in 10 days!

GordonGG (imported) wrote: Wed Feb 06, 2019 6:30 pm m there with you NotSoManly. I could have written that. I was so tired of fighting the testosterone driven libido that I started on Spiro in July 18, then discovered that the side effects weren't what I wanted to deal with so added low dose E in Oct 18. I've truly liked what this combination has done for me. Like you I’ve never like body hair and have done a lot of shaving for many years. I love how the E has reduced it a lot. And I don

GordonGG (imported) wrote: Wed Feb 06, 2019 6:30 pm m growing. I'm scheduled for an Orchi in 10 days!

Freemefromit (imported) wrote: Thu Feb 07, 2019 12:59 am Good luck with the op Gordon. Like you I'm fighting the libido, these past years since the wife lost hers have been torture and it seems to be getting worse not better. My wife is totally calm and unconcerned about sex now, she has had to have extensive surgery that has made her the equivalent of a eunuch and I've been amazed at how she's transformed from this super horny sexual vixen to a calm person who doesn't care a thing about sex, orgasms, fantasies or any of that stuff anymore and says she doesn't miss it or regret losing it. Which I know she would never have believed or said before the surgery. This makes me think there's hope for me too.

notsomanly (imported) wrote: Thu Feb 07, 2019 11:55 am I'd imagine you'll get along really well if your libidos are nonexistent. There is such a lot more to life than sex, and love is an entirely different thing.

Freemefromit (imported) wrote: Thu Feb 07, 2019 12:03 pm Yes, I just need the courage to take a dramatic step. Currently me wanting sex and her unwilling plus unable is the main source of stress in our relationship- apart from that we get along great! Damn cancer for doing this to us.

GordonGG (imported) wrote: Thu Feb 07, 2019 6:27 pm ​

You NEED to do something about it. For you, for your wife, and for your marriage.

I too fought that battle for way too long. It was frustrating to the extreme. Now I'm almost to the point of not caring. My "horniness" is truly transformed. I don't dwell on it nearly as much, and then when I do, it's within a totally different framework. It's very hard to explain. My wife is really enjoying my new attitude and my calmness. I like it too. It's a win win win!

With my upcoming Orchi, I'm expecting it to get even better.