Was everytime on TRT since my castration.

I'm curious how it will be without and think I'll test it from next week.

Hoping it's easier then with pills and with fewer bad side effects.

I think the most common side effects which people experience, hot or cold flashes, tiredness, etc., are due to lack of testosterone rather than the medication.

Of course some people have problems with anti androgens, but then I guess that not everyone gets along with TRT either.

Week 2

My second week on 100mg/day of Androcur.... and I think I might do one more week at this level. I think the effects are slowly starting to creep in now. I can still get hard if i want to and I think I still get "some" morning wood... but I think one big difference is the fact that i've not had any desire to check i can get hard or cum. Even my usual "go to" fantasies for when I want to get off, haven't entered my mind

Not sure if my flaccid state is currently smaller than usual (in a temporary way i mean... i'm obviously not expecting any kind of shrinkage for months.. if at all), hard state seems maybe 90% as before.

I think after next week I'll get my levels checked to see where I am

I'm into my sixth week on Androcur and couldn't be happier so far. I haven't had an erection for a month or so and only masturbated once out of curiosity. The best thing of all is no more sexual fantasies and almost no libido. It feels like a dark cloud has left my mind. I can think more clearly. No bad side effects so far. Nobody including my wife knew I was so tormented by my sexuality. Nothing has changed about the rest of me. In fact, I think I'm even more the person I wanted to be. I was afraid to know which person was the real me and now I know. That's practically like a religious conversion.

Another think I've noticed is that my testicles have shrunk steadily and are now only 2/3 as large and dropping fast. I've taken measurements to calculate volume each week. It's really astounding. The rate of decrease is steep and doesn't appear to be leveling out. I'm fascinated to follow the shrinkage as it progresses.

That's great. I'm also in my sixth week on Androcur. I too was tormented by my sexuality; fantasies in particular. While the desire has dropped drastically, I can still go there in my mind. I was hoping I wouldn't be able to at all. So, there's still a bit of work to do. But, I can do it now, where there was no way before.

WannaBeSmall (imported) wrote: Tue Apr 24, 2018 7:27 am Week 2

My second week on 100mg/day of Androcur.... and I think I might do one more week at this level. I think the effects are slowly starting to creep in now. I can still get hard if i want to and I think I still get "some" morning wood... but I think one big difference is the fact that i've not had any desire to check i can get hard or cum. Even my usual "go to" fantasies for when I want to get off, haven't entered my mind

Not sure if my flaccid state is currently smaller than usual (in a temporary way i mean... i'm obviously not expecting any kind of shrinkage for months.. if at all), hard state seems maybe 90% as before.

I think after next week I'll get my levels checked to see where I am

It’s funny how sex just stops being interesting. I’ve found that most of my previous fantasies now seem to be rather silly and a bit boring.

Shrinkage wise I still find it hard to tell. I sometimes think that it certainly looks smaller, but I think that’s more due to my penis being very flaccid rather than it actually getting any smaller yet.

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Zebedeee (imported) wrote: Tue Apr 24, 2018 11:39 pm sex just stops being interesting

".. I've been without my nuts for several years. What I find most interesting is how much we are all driven by sex by a force we are only able to control through castration. Now..I love the state of being without the slavery of Mother Nature forcing me to perform no matter what the cost. Funny that sex is only interesting IF....

It's really a revelation for me how labile my sexuality was, totally dependent on testosterone. Otherwise, I'm pretty much the person I've always been and I like that much better. I've spent most of my adult life trying to reconcile the sexual me and the rest of me, but now it's so easy. No more torturing by unwanted desires.

Random Guy (imported) wrote: Wed Apr 25, 2018 3:28 pm Hi! New Random Guy here..butting in on this thread. I was interested in the statement about "

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sex just stops being interesting

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hat the cost. Funny that sex is only interesting IF....

My sexual fantasies are long gone, thankfully. I can still masturbate, but just don't find it worth the effort. My experience is remarkably similar to others on this site.

andrew-n (imported) wrote: Tue Apr 24, 2018 1:46 pm That's great. I'm also in my sixth week on Androcur. I too was tormented by my sexuality; fantasies in particular. While the desire has dropped drastically, I can still go there in my mind. I was hoping I wouldn't be able to at all. So, there's still a bit of work to do. But, I can do it now, where there was no way before.

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notsomanly (imported) wrote: Wed Apr 25, 2018 3:55 pm tatement about "

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Random Guy (imported) wrote: Wed Apr 25, 2018 3:28 pm e=1524577140]
sex just stops being interesting

".. I've been without my nuts for several years. What I find most interesting is how much we are all driven by sex by a force we are only able to control through castrat

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hat the cost. Funny that sex is only interesting IF....

I agree 100%. It seems like a bad design to have people crave sex every few days for all their adult lives, well beyond its use for reproduction. There are many lives destroyed by the misuse of this desire. I feel very lucky to be one of the few who can switch it off. You should be able to get Androcur over the counter.

Week 3

Nothing too exciting to report. I think my morning wood has decreased, but not as much as I'd like. Boners during the day don't happen, simply because I'm not even in the mood! Haven't tried to see how easily I can get hard, but I don't think it would be too difficult. I swear my balls seem to be shrinking... I'm not sure if that's a placebo effect or not!

Haven't had any of the negative side effects either... which makes me wonder.... do I have a super resilient body, or is having no negative side effects not that uncommon? It also makes me wonder if the triptorelin I previously bought was in fact legit... and my body just "handled it"? Weird

Anyway, I think I'll do another week of 100mg of Androcur then perhaps get my levels checked!