Thanks a lot for all your input. Obviously frustration and happiness are quite close together.

I'm doing hard on trying to predict wether I would regret a surgery or not. I simply don't know how to be sure to do the right thing. All I know is that my male parts already caused a lot of discontentment. Every time I hide them away it feels good and somehow right, nevertheless I can't stop asking myself if it would really be right to remove them. I feel wether male nor female, but some kind of neutral. The great mess is I don't make any progress in improving my situation. It's now a process over 25 years, things got rather worse than better, and all I know is that something has to change. In the past two to three years this bad situation already led to depressions. Fortunately, I found back to a quite stable status. Even seeing a therapist during this time was not too helpful.

I don't want any bad or unwanted side effects of castration (without HRT), but on the other hand it somehow feels like castration resp. nullification is the only way for me to lead a content life. At least this is what always breaks through in my mind.

So, what to do?

Frida G Cavic (imported) wrote: Mon Mar 28, 2016 10:33 am I´, chemicall castrated with cacl2,

Oh dear, I was fearing this day among the injection castration crowd... While I'm happy you've achieved your goal and you feel better freddyde, CaCl is NOT chemical castration. It's instead a caustic agent that causes testicular ablation/destruction.

Chemical Castration is using hormonal agents to reduce testosterone levels in the body. An example of this would be Depo Provera.

I'd fear someone new here mixing up the two as they were taking the "test drive" to see if reduced libido is for them as these methods are not the same. Depo Provera is reversible (within a certain time limit) but CaCl injections are not.

--LT

Losethem (imported) wrote: Mon Mar 28, 2016 4:32 pm Oh dear, I was fearing this day among the injection castration crowd... While I'm happy you've achieved your goal and you feel better freddyde, CaCl is NOT chemical castration. It's instead a caustic agent that causes testicular ablation/destruction.

Chemical Castration is using hormonal agents to reduce testosterone levels in the body. An example of this would be Depo Provera.

I'd fear someone new here mixing up the two as they were taking the "test drive" to see if reduced libido is for them as these methods are not the same. Depo Provera is reversible (within a certain time limit) but CaCl injections are not.

--LT

No, I have not reach completely my goal yet, gladly I am a transgender woman, not an eunuch nor a nullo . yes I´m very very happy with the results:) , but I´m still in process to reach my goal, that will take a longer time than simply being surgically castrated or posibly having a SRS ,but I´m on my way.

chemical castration refers to use a chemical agent. in that view may be included cacl2 as a chemical agent, although directly into the testicles. but I did not create the concepts. I´m not wrong simply that is popularly known that chemical castration is using depo-provera, androcur...and that is right of course I do not pretend change the terms.

the important here is remark that cacl2 cause an irreversible necrosis to tissues so like you said, should not be considered as "trial" in any moment in any circumstances.

TVK asks what to do? TVK to decide carefully.

I can't answer but having become a happy eunuch from medical necessity, and now very much enjoy being ball-less, mostly no sack, and in control of my HRT. With T, I am much the same as before, apart from the cool feeling and appearance. Without T, I have discovered another rather more likeable self, which also feels good. Effects of no or low T are easily checked by the doc, and while this is most important, it should be said that there seems some evidence that eunuch live longer.

I am not nullified, so I can't give much advice about it. I sometimes wonder why it is that along with others here who are happily without their balls, thoughts frequently now turn to going to the next step to nullo. If I do, it will be after much consideration, consent of my partner, and will be done by the best professionals I can find.

In short, I can't answer for you, but can say that this one eunuch who much enjoys it, with no regrets at all. Get good advice, take care of yourself, decide carefully, and if you need to be ball-less and/or dickless, get the best to do it.

T van Keel,

I am not an expert here, but from what I read, you seem to want to be a nullo and do not wish to have any symptom of no/low T.

Base on that, having surgery to remove male external genitalia AND continue to receive T supplement might be the way to achieve your goal.

Many castrated guys here wished they had the surgery earlier in their lives. It seems that the surgery helped reaching their goal.

There's a risk in any surgery. And once your genitalia are gone, they are gone. The surgery is irreversible.

May be humans, who regret of their castration, don't come this forum.

I wanted to be castrated for years. I first went to "natural" sort of products that were supposed to work, but did not. Then a real product that did (cyproterone acetate). Added estrogen to replace testosterone (I think I needed some hormones). Didn't want to be on meds forever so had myself surgically castrated. Didn't like empty saggie sack so had it cut off. Never thought about regrets, and you don't want to go there if you can't go back.

smoothie36 (imported) wrote: Tue Mar 29, 2016 6:26 am I wanted to be castrated for years. I first went to "natural" sort of products that were supposed to work, but did not. Then a real product that did (cyproterone acetate). Added estrogen to replace testosterone (I think I needed some hormones). Didn't want to be on meds forever so had myself surgically castrated. Didn't like empty saggie sack so had it cut off. Never thought about regrets, and you don't want to go there if you can't go back.

I have no regrets. I had to be castrated and was. I did experience hot flashes and depression, so I had to add back "some" testosterone, which is great. You can control your testosterone levels, they don't control you. I use a low dose regimen which wards off hot flashes and depression and also helps to prevent osteoporosis. I think that my castration was more difficult than my penectomy simply because it took longer to achieve and was somehow more scary. Maybe after being castrated, the penectomy wasn't as scary for me.

daifu-orchid (imported) wrote: Mon Mar 28, 2016 7:45 pm Get good advice, take care of yourself, decide carefully, and if you need to be ball-less and/or dickless, get the best to do it.

I've done a lot of careful thinking in the past 10+ years, but still there remains a certain bit of uncertanty. I will see an other therapist soon, maybe this will open a new way towards answers, but I'm a litte bit sceptic as this way didn't help me much in the last years.

As you also say, get the best to do it. I totally agree with that. I don't want a non-professional result, for safety and aesthetic reasons.

Get the best:

Good advice,

Good time to think,

Good decision,

Good action -maybe done by the best,

Good life, lived to the best.

-The recipe for life with no regrets?