JesusA (imported) wrote: Fri Aug 01, 2014 10:40 am
In a further attempt to understand and improve the Eunuch Archive, we have a question for both authors and readers of the FICTION Archive. In your answer, please indicate whether you are an author of any stories or if you only read the stories.
How is the Fiction Archive useful to you?
The Fiction Archive was very important as a reader, and is still important too. I was surfing on the net with the search terms "castration" and "ball busting" I came on the site of BME, where I read some stories about men who were or got castrated or had their testicles seriously damaged. They were written in the first person and I read them as a report of their personal experience. Maybe they were, maybe not, but for me went a door open to a subject I was struggling with and made find the Eunuch Archive. They made believe there are other real persons like me struggling with the same subject and the Eunuch Archive proofed there are such real people. As a member of the EA with real men and eunuchs, the function of the Fiction Archive changed to me. By reading the fiction of others I could safely follow them in their fantasy and find what I liked or not. It opened safely the door to my repressed subconsciousness. Fears, pain, friendship, pleasure, fun, punishment, staying a boy, castrated as a boy, castrated as an adult, eunuch friendships, self castrating as a boy or as an adults, projecting castration to the past or future, to an other, real or fictive culture, identifying with the castration of animals, absurdism like fishing with testicles of boy scouts, miraculous vanishing body parts, selling penises as hotdogs. This made my struggle more bearable, lighter. The factor "If this or If that." in the stories, to explore fantasy and subconsciousness, is very important.
It learned me too that castration and penectomy are not only a desire for an new and own identity or a funny play, but has much to do with a culture of repressed sexuality = a boy masturbates or has sex with a girl and has to loose his balls. What is wrong with masturbating and exploring sexuality? Why this feeling of guild?
It learned me that I hate incest. Meeting a castrated boy in the story who is happy to get fucked by his father or uncle, is the end of the story, I can't read any further.
It learned me that Identify myself with the men and boys who get or are castrated and that I like to be comforted in that situation. This says a lot about me also as an intact man.
The quality of the stories is very different, but that doesn't matter. I have printed many stories and later discarded because of the fear someone would see them and because I thought this whole subject was sick.
As a writer: I have two stories in Dutch in the initial phase and don't know whether I shall finish them. - one about friended happy castrated adults and a second about friended happy castrated boys.
Today I read less stories and still like them. There are less contributions in the department "Story Reviews & Author Feedback". In the old system I used the email address of the authors to write them how I liked their story and some friendly reactions and with someone an email correspondence. For me has the star rating replaced that. Recently I used for the first time the possebily to leave a comment which is only related to the story you just read at that moment.