Digit ratio, something to do with our hormoe exposure?

[ZalanDarkbane (imported)]

My index and ring fingers on both hands are almost exactly the same size with maybe my index finger being 1mm shorter. I've never felt overly 'manly' but I sure got the build of a man. Big hands, 6'3" tall. Sexually, never felt much attraction for either sex, I can appreciate the aesthetics of both male and female forms, but nothing that ever turns me 'on' . I prefer the look of females overall, but no real sexual attraction if that makes sense. However, situations either in stories or pictures do have an effect on me. So for example, if a hot woman is in a photo in extreme bondage, it's the bondage and not the woman that is of interest.

I have thought about taking female hormones in the past to see how I would feel with a different chemical mix in my body. Even thoughts of transitioning in the past, but I would make one really freakish looking woman which is of concern, also losing the ability to achieve sexual gratification through masturbation would be troubling to me if I did transition. I have always been emotional, and sad movies will have me bawling.

If I had health insurance, I would go and get a hormonal level test to see where I sit. My father (RIP) lost his hair at an early age, yet I have a full head of hair at 40. I've had gynecomastia since I hit puberty, but then I've also been overweight since I was a teenager as well, so if that is a symptom of hormones or just being a fatty, that's up for debate.

I feel in many ways intersex, a bit of one a bit of the other. The Genetic lottery gave me the shape of a bruiser, but the heart of a female in many ways, no real sexual attraction to either sex, but social pressures have me prefer females (but not bothered by the male form) If I could transition and not be a complete trainwreck of a M2F, I'd start taking the stuff right now.