wantingtbc (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 17, 2012 7:25 am Why do you think people have urge for penectomy.....I would really like to find out why I have this self-distruct mind set. Does anybody else suffer with this.

You're certainly not alone. My hubby has had a forced-penectomy fantasy for decades, going back to grade school. In his case, we believe a single incident involving his sister was the main catalyst, but there are probably other factors long forgotten or repressed. Enjoy the fantasy, but keep it in the realm of fantasy.

Sandi

wantingtbc (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 17, 2012 7:25 am Why do you think people have urge for penectomy.

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wantingtbc (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 17, 2012 7:25 am I would really like to find out why I have this self-distruct mind set. Does anybody else suffer with this.

Why do you call it a self destruct mindset? As you read some of the accounts here on EA you will learn that many others have similar desires.

My first recollections of dislike for my penis must have been when I was about 5 or 6 years old. I don't recall the reason for that dissatisfaction or what I wanted instead. Later around 10 years old I wanted to have my male parts replaced by female parts.

I married at 21 and found pleasure and satisfaction in love and sex with my wife. However, my dissatisfaction with my male genitals and my desire to have female genitals never went away.

I still greatly love my wife and don't want to compromise that relationship. However, I no longer have any practical use for my penis and testicles. My wife has not desired sexual penetration for over 3 years and no longer manually stimulates them. I have sat to pee full time for over 14 years and have no desire to stand under any circumstances. They are only an inconvenience and a source of frustration for me.

Voluntary penectomy and castration are not options for me as my wife would not agree with such voluntary procedures. Thus, I am secretly looking for a safe and acceptable way to do something which will require medical removal of my penis, testicles and scrotum along with urethra relocation.

Why must we be required to keep those things when they are no longer essential or practical?

Voluntary SRS or even

Mac (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 26, 2012 8:12 am penectomy and castration are not options for me as my wife would not agree with such voluntary procedures. Thus, I am secretly looking for a safe and acceptable way to do something which will require medical removal of my penis, testicles and scrotum along with urethra relocation.

Mac, the bold part is what you have to work on. If you don´t resolve this, you will never get what you desire.

Hash (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 26, 2012 2:55 am I believe that if you have this desire it will grow and in the end most men with this desire will seek to fulfill it, and have their penises cut off. It might take another 10 or 15 years, but it will happen. I know that one day I will have it removed, I just don't know when.

I'm not sure if I should be relieved or terrified by this notion. I've had thoughts of cutting off my penis since I was very young, before I even knew what a penis was for. I've also always enjoyed playing with it, yet I've thought about cutting it off. As a kid, I'd sometimes put my penis in scissors and squeeze just until I felt the pinch, and I'd also sneak into the kitchen when my parents were sleeping, get a knife, pull my penis from my pajamas, and think about cutting it off. Otherwise, I grew up a "normal" straight male. I love women, sex, and masturbation, but I've never shaken my penectomy fantasy. I enjoy self knife play from time to time. It's really intense sometimes. There have been a few occasions when I put my penis on a cutting board, took a knife or cleaver in my hand, and held it very near my penis. I've raised my hand, thinking how swiftly and simply I could bring down the blade, and the deed would be done in an instant. I find it so exciting that my heart races, I tremble, and a few times, I've had powefrul orgasms without even touching my penis - just the thought of chopping it off was all I needed. I've also had dreams that my penis was off, although I've never had dreams about the actual cutting, just my penis being detached. In the dreams, I have mixed feelings of excitement, yet wondering if I can get it put back on. I always wake up with a throbbing erection after such a dream. I also enjoy tucking my penis in and sealing it in with invisible tape. I enjoy the look of the dickless me. I've always been too afraid to share these fantasies with a woman, but I'd very much like to find one who'd enjoy some fantasy kinfe play. I don't think I'd really want her to cut it off - or would I?

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stewie69 (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 26, 2012 12:55 pm I've had thoughts of cutting off my penis since I was very young, before I even knew what a penis was for. ....I've always been too afraid to share these fantasies with a woman, but I'd very much like to find one who'd enjoy some fantasy kinfe play. I don't think I'd really want her to cut it off - or would I?

You and my hubby have a LOT in common. His penectomy fantasies go back to preteen years also. I humor him with threats to his penis, banding, bondage, testicle beating, etc. So there are women out there who'd be sympathetic to your fantasy, but we're a rare breed. Tim found me by asking me to kick his testicles on our second date. I wasn't the first one he'd asked. He didn't go out again with girls who turned him down.

Sandi

C&TL2745 (imported) wrote: Tue Jun 26, 2012 1:23 pm You and my hubby have a LOT in common. His penectomy fantasies go back to preteen years also. I humor him with threats to his penis, banding, bondage, testicle beating, etc. So there are women out there who'd be sympathetic to your fantasy, but we're a rare breed. Tim found me by asking me to kick his testicles on our second date. I wasn't the first one he'd asked. He didn't go out again with girls who turned him down.

Sandi

I'm not really into the pain thing. Ballbusting isn't my speed. I don't even think about the pain factor in my penectomy fantasies - I just imagine it coming off. I don't bring up my fantasies because, otherwise, I enjoy normal relations with women. The penectomy thing isn't a constant, but it does rear its head (so to speak) pretty strongly sometimes. I don't want to ruin a good relationship with this quirk, and I certainly don't want word getting out. I don't think I'm a freak, but I can understand how some might take it that way, and it's a label I certainly don't want.

Sandi,

You are awesome!! Do so enjoy having my cock and balls worked over good and hard. I do have a couple of marks on my balls from my Mistress Julia sticking them with a lighted cigarette. I really got off on that and am sure that Julia did too!

Thanks so much,

James

Monday I receive a chastity belt and send the key to my ow.ner goddess Veronica,. I am still having my penis cut off in november. hopefully the chastity belt will curb my masturbation to women like jackie

Uh, she's not a woman; she's 12.