DeaconBlues (imported) wrote: Mon Aug 22, 2011 12:24 pm It seems as though I am ALWAYS defending the indefensable, tending the untenable, and other hopeless lost causes, but here I go again.

I do not know thing one about the person accused in this matter, and I do not have any idea of what sort or quantity of "kiddie porn" may have been found in his house, but when I thought about it, I actually did come up with at least ONE plausable "good" reason for him to have at least a little bit of it... OK, here goes my reasoning on this matter:

IF he is a "cutter," and he makes his living doing this thing, then he probably wants clients, people who will pay him to do this. I imagine that many men, when it comes down to the wire, have a lot of second thoughts, doubts, and apprehension, after all, once it is done it is DONE, no going back. IF I were in that situation, ready to be castrated and having some last minute doubts, I might need to be reminded of one of the best reasons to be castrated, i.e. no more sexual obsession. SOME men, when they look at a child in a sexual way, are aroused (OMG!! If I EVER got aroused thinking about a kid I think I would cut my own junk off with a rusty knife that very second!), so, if the cutter handed them a book of kiddie porn and they were reminded of their pediphilia, I think that would serve to push very strongly to get rid of that mental affliction as soon as possible and go ahead with the castration.... I HOPE, however hopeless this reasoning may seem, that he was keeping the trash around for some sort of "good" reason, and not for his own or any other pediphile's enjoyment.

He did not charge for his castrations. He videotaped them and sent them to be processed and distributed. He was paid by how many copies of his videos sold. He must have been making more money with the sales of the video than he thought he could charge. It was upsetting when strange men would call to tell me they enjoyed my video. So much for confidentiality and the privacy I would have had using a surgery center. You live and learn. I also received a call that detectives may come to the house to question me. Mom would have loved all of that in her house.

He was arrested the first time because his roommate turned him in because he was planning to castrate a young boy. Supposedly someone he knew was going to bring his son for the operation. After I was done I became aware of what a racist he is. His big dream was that with help to kidnap a man of color, castrate him and release him. He really is not worth defending.

As much as I needed castration and as big a help as it has been to my life I do have to live with the knowledge of who did it. This was all before I had computer access and knew of the EA. Long before I knew of doctors in Philidelphia. Once he had my parts in jars and the video in hand he was done with me. I had to gather up all the used medical supplies and trash and take to the dumpster. He thought it would be okay to let housekeeping clean the room as is. Oh and his videos were edited if anything went wrong. If you ever watch a castration video and you hear him ask for the camera to be turned off something unexpectedly is happening. Chances are that smooth going surgery was not smooth.

OK, with what you have told me Tugon, I think he is a total CREEP and I hope he goes to jail for the rest of his life.

tugon (imported) wrote: Mon Aug 22, 2011 12:48 pm I do have to live with the knowledge of who did it.

They say, "Experience is the best teacher; that's why it charges the highest tuition!"

I just have to repeat it.

After having helped raise 5 five boys, changed diapers, given baths, examined genitals for injury/disease, given advice, and the whole nine yards, I am at a LOSS as to how anyone could even WANT to look at a naked kid, much less get their jollies from it.

Especially, N2, the exhibitionist. If I had a dollar for every time I had to tell him to "put a hat on it" I could retire.

If I ever see another naked kid, it will be too soon!

Now I wonder if Bodkin might have killed someone accidentally and hide the results... He sounds like something from a horror movie

Milkman (imported) wrote: Thu Sep 01, 2011 8:19 am Now I wonder if Bodkin might have killed someone accidentally and hide the results... He sounds like something from a horror movie

Not that he ever bragged about. I must say I never saw someone's personality change so quickly. I do think one of his men that he castrated did need medical care. I do not know of anyone dying from a botched castration. He tried to talk me into a penectomy. I am sure I would have died from that if I had agreed. He wanted to do a urethral reroute in a motel room. I am sure that bed was as sterile as an operating table.

Of course I have not spoken with the man since weeks after my castration.