slave_jim (imported) wrote: Sat Aug 17, 2002 11:49 pm Does anyone else have reports of changing ejaculate, volume, viscosity, surges, feelings, messes to clean up, etc.? Would love to read more!

Just the other day, I think it was Tuesday, I had an ejaculation. Not because I needed too, but I wanted to see if there were any changes. Yes, I am glad to report that there was hardly no sperm or fluid, and it did sting slightly. My HRT must be working because I have never seen a lesser amount before. The climax did not last as long and no fluid to speak of. I love not having to think about sex all the time and I can go for long periods now without doing anything.

Greetings!

In late August I had an unusual experience that I shared with Christina in a private message: I was in the Baltimore/Washington area for a week on a business trip... After a couple days, I couldn't wait to check out my ejaculations so I masturbated and all I got was a few weak sprinkles of what looked like water. I tried it again the next day and it was the same. There was no viscosity at all (or white) and my ejaculation looked more like clear raindrops rather than semen. I was psyched and pretty happy with this. Sensations were limited.

I've been on HRT now (with Spirotone) for three months. I'm very pleased to report that my whole package seems smaller than when I was on a purely glandular/mineral therapy. I continue the use of glandulars and try to remember to take Boron but that is the one thing I forget. My penis in its' natural state is like a small button. Often my balls are tight in the scrotum, but at times they will hang down, too, probably from afternoon warmth. I prefer it when they ascend as much as possible. I cannot tell if they have become smaller, and three months has probably not caused any shrinkage yet. My ejaculations are very weak. Although there is some viscosity and white, it's like nothing I've seen before. I preferred the sprinkles of clear water I had in Maryland and wondered if airplane travel caused that. Volume is way, way down and there is no force whatsoever. Even the water sprinkles, as little as that was, had at least some force.

More in the following post.

- Jim

Some men posting on this board have mentioned how disgusted they are with nocturnal erections. I used to have them and wake up with them often, but never since July. Usually now when I wake up I have my normal miniature "button" penis (which is hard to grab) but it can grow quickly with any stimulating thought.

In the past I had a proud erection of 6¼" which of course is only average. The best I can achieve now is 4¾" and believe me, it is a strain to get it. The 4¾" measurement is when I am, fortunate or unfortunate depending on how you look at it, totally erect and straining for maximum hardness that is rarely achieved.

I can go many days without masturbating, but that old curiosity and pleasure seeking takes over. Most of the time I climax with a rod that is mostly limp and bendable, and not at the "full" length of 4¾". I discussed ejaculations in my previous message.

The smaller penis... is it due solely to estrogen or due to age? Perhaps it is a combination of that plus glandulars, but I have not noticed the obviously shorter penis until recently. This is in conflict with information at www.sissify.com which clearly states that taking estrogens and other female hormones will not reduce the size of the penis. The House of Sissify also mentions that fertility is permanently lost after some long duration of HRT (for males). I find the website information-packed. Although the goal of the site is different from my own, I enjoy reading and doing the research on particular vitamins and herbs used for feminization. This will help guide me further on my journey.

Estrogen has not altered my moods or emotions...yet. One thing that Sissify.com mentions is dry skin (during HRT) and that is something I have noticed for sure. When my penis does erect, the skin has breaks just below the head and yesterday I noticed dry skin flakes on most of the upper shaft. Although I use plenty of aloe vera gel to help repair the skin of the penis, it continues to crack. Guess that is my punishment or warning, huh?

Of course, my main goal is to really reduce ejaculating and eliminate stimulating thoughts. Masturbation is indeed a chore (now), so why bother? I think at this point I will look into additional "feminine" herbs before taking more drastic action such as Androcur, etc.

Thanks for reading!

- Jim

I haven't heard from you in a while. I am glad you are doing ok and that your HRT is working for you. I too am having similar reactions as you being on HRT. I would like to mention that I am going back to my doctor on Tuesday for an evaluation and blood tests. I will give you an update then, although it may take several more days to get the results back on the blood tests.

As far as atrophy goes, I notice periods of shrinkage and growth. I still think my hormone levels need to be adjusted a little more, as it has been slow going to get where I am at now. I am curious to see if my doctor will change my intake of hormones again.

At this time masturbation is not an issue for me. I have even attempted to masturbate and then given up without any frustrations. I don't care about it at all any more, really. It is one less thing that I am concerned with now.

Thank's for keeping us informed of your progress.

This is interesting CHRISTIANA i read in one of your previous posts that since you started on hrt you have lost waight. I have been on depo provera for four monthes now and this is the first time in my life i am watching wy waight .I have lost 15 pounds so far. I also am not eating after dinner snacks somthing i used to love to do. Maby it has somthing to do with our sence of well beaing. As for masturbation is concerned it has been over two monthes and i do not have any desire any more it is the best i have ever felt. CHRISTIANA i have been reading your articles for some time now and i hope that some day your dreams will come true

Christina (imported) wrote: Sat Oct 05, 2002 6:55 pm At this time masturbation is not an issue for me. I have even attempted to masturbate and then given up without any frustrations. I don't care about it at all any more, really. It is one less thing that I am concerned with now.

Hi, Christina!

Whow, I am happy for you! That is where I want to get -- to forget about masturbation.

One thing that is frustrating me is diet, energy, and of course a limited taste for beer which I mentioned before. Now that the MLB playoffs are going, I would really like to get the BBQ going and enjoy the games. Of course, it is more healthy for me to *not* drink so much beer, but this has been a drastic lifestyle change for me.

Starting Thursday, Oct. 3 and continuing on thru this morning, my breasts have really become tender (almost sore) and the center of the areola (nipple) is sticking out like it is stimulated. I have felt tingling before but never this soreness. I enjoy this change.

Thanks for posting.

- Jim

To sag111,

From February of this year to date, I have now lost 44 lbs. I think most of it is due to the hot weather and working harder at my job. Over the past three week's losing weight has been a little harder. The cooler temperature may have something to do with it. I have been +/- 5 lbs and have seemed to level off. A sence of well-being is, for the most part, one of the reasons for losing this weight. I do ocasionally cheat on my diet and I am looking into an exercise program to add to my regiment. I still need to lose more weight.

To Jim,

Since I have been under my doctors care, I have not had any breast tenderness until 4 days ago. One of the things I have posted before, was that I was on my own regiment of HRT. During that time I did get the breast tenderness. The first thing I noticed is just behind the areola, a sore lump will accure, this is normal. With continued use of HRT, the tenderness spreads out around the areola and I felt small nodules forming, these are the ductile tissues of the breast growing. As the breast grows, this tenderness can be quite noticable, especialy when bumped or jarred. Myself having a fair amount of growth already, notice that when walking down stairs or riding in a car on a bumpy road, they tend to hurt a little. I don't mind this at all, it give me reassurance that the HRT is working! As for how much growth one can expect, it is up to family genetics. Right now, my breasts are still small compared with the rest of my body, but with continued HRT, they may grow to a proportion I will be satisfied with. Only time will tell.

Christina (imported) wrote: Sun Oct 06, 2002 5:18 pm As the breast grows, this tenderness can be quite noticable, especialy when bumped or jarred. Myself having a fair amount of growth already, notice that when walking down stairs or riding in a car on a bumpy road, they tend to hurt a little. I don't mind this at all, it give me reassurance that the HRT is working!

Christina,

Thank you for sharing.

As you know I've been and am still pretty heavy. I've lost about 10 lbs. since starting to participate on the Eunuch Archive. So, I had some very slight breast growth (obvious fat) prior to HRT.

But now, my breasts are somewhat visually larger and they feel bigger to me, too. The feeling is what I also enjoy. I especially like feeling the weight of them and fullness when at my computer. They are not rounded beautifully like the female breasts, though -- they have a more of a width than a vertical growth. I can feel them against the inside of my arms.

As of today, my nipples are still sore. I was really happy when I felt the tingling a couple months ago and I hope that comes back.

These larger breasts will be a problem for me, though, if I wear tight shirts. If it continues I might have to wear a t-shirt to keep them pressed in. Of course my concern is having large boobs at work.

- Jim

slave_jim (imported) wrote: Tue Oct 08, 2002 3:25 am These larger breasts will be a problem for me, though, if I wear tight shirts. If it continues I might have to wear a t-shirt to keep them pressed in. Of course my concern is having large boobs at work.

If that is the case, you might try what I use at work, a sports bra that compresses as well as supports. Plenty of variaty to be found, and you should be able to find one that suits you. I use an IN SPORT "Elitist", size 40. Good for A, B, or C sizes.

Andrew (imported) wrote: Tue Oct 08, 2002 6:05 am If that is the case, you might try what I use at work, a sports bra that compresses as well as supports. Plenty of variaty to be found, and you should be able to find one that suits you. I use an IN SPORT "Elitist", size 40. Good for A, B, or C sizes.

Andrew, thank you.

Does this sports bra show lines or outlines in your shirts?

Well, the pictures are attached from what I found. It looks very comfortable and I suppose it can't really be detected.

I bet Christina will like this as well. I hope these can be ordered or purchased in the U.S.

- Jim