It gets better! (http://www.itgetsbetter.org/)

This is a very difficult time in your life, but all this negativity will pass. Just pretend you're a strong tree in the wind and bend, and when the storm passes you can stand tall and know happiness.

I am gay and was in the Army when don't ask, don't tell was passed. Can you imagine how difficult that was? Having to hide who you are and why you are not bringing a date to the battalion social, and when you do have a relationship you've sought it out 100 miles away and the only thing you can do is tell those around you about "her" without ever bringing "her" around.

It was tough, and one of the most stressful times in my life, but I made it.

You will make it too.

--LT

Seems to me you've got some pretty good friends and people around you.

The parents may be gay bashing but that's hardly the end of the world, unless you plan to live with them forever.

Besides, why are you lost? You seem to know you're gay anyway. There are better things to be suicidal about...

In any case, I'd suggest doing what others have advised. Talk to someone, get counselling. I don't even have any way to get any help with my situation by talking to someone and getting counselling if I wanted to. It's a hard thing to hear, but count what blessings you have because there are others worse off.