I know what you are going through. For me it was liking the grass grow on a daily basis. But after a month, there was a noticeable effect.

I kept a log of my progress on the blog, but the blogs got erased so I don't remember details. After 3 months I was getting full blown results.

My journey has been like the stock market, very erratic. I decided I did not want the risks of the drug for the long haul but that I did like the end result. And since surgical castration was not likely I was glad to learn of ethyl alcohol testicle injection. That was risky and scary, but in the end, it worked. I thought I would take TRT to avoid long term risks associated with low T. But again, as before, my experience with even low dose TRT was unacceptable, so I am now T-free (natural or artificial).

Taking the chemical however is a good way to learn if you like having low T or not. Not a good idea to do anything permanent until you test drive first. Hopefully your progress will be not the bumpy ride that I experienced. But then, there is no training manual for this kind of process.

I have continued to think about who I want to be and to get rid of male sexual desires for good. I ordered another trial of dose of Cyproterone 150 50 mg tabs this time for a longer run. I took my first pill today, I plan on taking 100mg a day for two weeks then back to 50mg till they run out in about 4.5 months. This work great for me last time and really can’t wait for that calm feeling to return. I have also thought seriously about transitioning mtf. So with this order I also ordered two months supply, 16 estrogpatches to get some breast growth and feminization and feel what low T and high E feels like like. This I hoping will help me in deciding to go all the way with transition and become a woman I have always felt I was inside.

I not sure when to start the patches right away or let the Cyproterone reduce my T first. Looking forward to all of this as I’m single now with kids grown. Any help would be welcomed in my journey.

I should note that I had a blood test a few weeks ago my age is 56. My T was at 396 and my E was 126 a bit high on the E for a male but that’s ok that’s the direction I want to go anyway. So looking forward to the calm of no T again, I remember it well from my 2011 trial of 2 1/2 months. I always knew I would be doing another trial for a longer period to really know and with some estrogen a think I’m going to be happy with how I feel. I will keep all updated with my progress. I’ve been a member since 2003 when I googled eunuch and found this sight. I knew right away this was for me and registered. Love reading the stories and responses from others on how happy they are and there different places they are at in there life and what they desire. It’s very ecouridging that most of those that have gone through with being castrated are very happy and don’t miss the controlling T. That ran their life for so long.

After further thought I decided to just go ahead and start estrogen as well, so this morning I applied my first estradot (Oestradial)100mcg patch which I will change twice a week, together with Cyproterone I’ve read should completely shut down testosterone and sperm production within a few weeks. Can’t wait for Christmas as I should begin to feel to effects both mentally and hopefully maybe some sore nipples as the estrogen wakes them up, I Christmas present to myself. If anyone had info on how to use calcium chloride and everclear injections the correct way, ivevresd 1ml shot in each testicle will kill them and I like the fact that once you inject there is nothing that anyone can do to stop them from shriveling up and dieing, if I decide this is what I want I feel this is a good fool proof way to be castrated.

gfbi (imported) wrote: Tue Dec 11, 2018 6:55 am After further thought I decided to just go ahead and start estrogen as well, so this morning I applied my first estradot (Oestradial)100mcg patch which I will change twice a week, together with Cyproterone I’ve read should completely shut down testosterone and sperm production within a few weeks. Can’t wait for Christmas as I should begin to feel to effects both mentally and hopefully maybe some sore nipples as the estrogen wakes them up, I Christmas present to myself. If anyone had info on how to use calcium chloride and everclear injections the correct way, ivevresd 1ml shot in each testicle will kill them and I like the fact that once you inject there is nothing that anyone can do to stop them from shriveling up and dieing, if I decide this is what I want I feel this is a good fool proof way to be castrated.

I was on Androcur for about half a year before deciding that I never wanted to experience normal T levels again. I followed the procedure adapted from dog sterilization that is described in the CaCl2 thread. Done sterile, it worked very well and my testicles have shrunk to ~ 1/3 their original size. The right one is a bit bigger than the left and may be generating a low level of T. I have an appointment with my internist tomorrow so I'll get my annual blood test results. I'm hoping T is below 200 ng/dl. If not I will probably do another CaCl2 injection. I'd been on estradiol for a couple of months but now not on anything. I've developed nice breast buds. Still no libido as of now, but I get occasional morning wood but no desire to masturbate.

Overall, I'm thrilled about the result. I haven't felt this good for many years and ecstatic about the total absence of sexual fantasies and attraction to porn. What a waste of time and life!

Yes I agree how great it is to be free of testosterone, I remember my first go around and can’t wait to get there again. Looking forward to see what the estrogen feels like along with the changes.

Well I’m a week in, not feeling much at this point except a little calmer. I did end up taking 100mg for two days then 150mg for four day and I’m now back to 100mg for another week then I’ll just take 50 mg. Just want to make sure I had enough to get off to a good start. Haven’t felt anything from the estradot patches yet but it still early. I’m going to get my blood tested again at the 1 month mark to see were I’m at with my hormone levels and other tests run. I found a great site called private slabs.com you can order many types of tests and then go to a local testing lab to draw blood. And then they send you an email to login and view or print the results. I do the transgender test as it tests both male and female hormones levels a long with other blood test that should be test while taking Tblpcker and estrogen. Plus it’s nicw that it’s not on your medical record. I been reading that estrogen is wonder feeling once levels are at cis female and T is is gone, also helps change the way you view things including sex and your orientation. I’m bi but many times thought I was gay. I always injoy gay sex, tried being a top a few time but I’m a total bottom. But never really had an emotional connection to men, maybe that will change with different hormones. Then again my favorite porn was lesbian. So who knows just have to wait and see where things go. Went to the mall and bought panties and a bra. I look forward to try more feminism things. Wish me luck.

I should note that last March I ended up in a wheelchair and paralyzed from the waist down. So nothing works down there anymore but I can say I don’t miss it as I was so controlled be Testosterone and sex on my mind all the time it got used a lot. There is no drought now that I want to be castrated being horny and no way to release it, plus my balls are just in the way now. As I have said I always loved wearing panties, nylons and other silky things not to mention I have always wondered about my feelings about being a girl from a very young age. So now is the right time in my mine that I want to explore that feminine side and hopefully become who I dreamed of being. One day at a time taking it slow letting the Cyproterone and estrogen do there thing and at the same time becoming comfortable learning about how to become a woman without looking like a clown. I wil update my journey every week.

Taking another step, booked an appointment with a gender therapist today to talk about mtf or mte

gfbi (imported) wrote: Fri Sep 13, 2019 6:38 pm Taking another step, booked an appointment with a gender therapist today to talk about mtf or mte

Great! Let us know how things go.

I started on androcur again friday. Looking forwards to the experience again. I always hope the negative side effects won't happen. Fingers crossed.