Splitdik,

Maybe you will win some type of award for the photos. Don't know what category that would fall under but you would surely be the winner.

Okay, added three more pictures from Day 3 of healing. This time focused on the ring of stitches around the glans. Looks like a Frankenstein penis!

NSFW of course. Also, you have to log into Flickr (since I flagged them as restricted):

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I'm starting to get some bruising. The other thing is that the foreskin is pretty much numb (no feeling). I think that will probably come back as the swelling comes down, however, I've always wondered about that -- at some point a total circumferential cut must sever a lot of nerves. I don't mind being less sensitive down there, but an interesting effect.

The stitches are dissolvable and I will see the Dr. on Monday for follow up.

One other worry I have is that the foreskin on the top is tending to want to cover up the glans a bit (in fact it is difficult to pull it down and even hides when erect). I suspect this is just the swelling combined with the stitches, but if the foreskin does naturally pull up to cover the glans I might have to get that corrected -- I'm used to having the glans exposed and it would be a negative result.

It looks fine to me. I had voluntary circumcision when I was 30 (I'm 56 now), and mine looked very similar to yours post-op. Looks like your surgeon used some kind of running stitch, and I think it's going to be a very neat result. It will smooth out a lot over time.

Like you, one of the reasons I was circumcised was to get rid of scar tissue. I had several redundant piercings around my foreskin and I thought they were unsightly. The surgeon had to do a fairly tight circumcision in order to remove them for me, but I was alarmed that it was so tight post-op because it restricted the length of my erection. When I saw the surgeon for a follow up appointment he said "Not to worry, the skin will stretch." Well, it did, and I re-gained my erect length, but at the expense of a bit of 'turkey neck' - that's the effect of scrotal skin being pulled forward onto the shaft. So please try not to worry about how much skin there is now. I'm sure you'll fill it out as you regain your sexual health, and IMHO it's better to be a little loose when your cock is flaccid and small (from cold, etc.) than to not have enough shaft skin when fully erect.

It looks great so far but please keep posting pics as it heals. It'll be interesting to see it in a few months time - flaccid and erect pics would be interesting

I was just about to ask, after looking at your cock in Flickr, if you had a split head...Duh...Then I looked at your name...Splitdik...hehehe..I have the same split head...Pulled out PA? I like the bigger pee hole..I can fit my pinkie down it.

What a perv....hehe Thanks for the neat photos..Nice cock dragonfly

Thanks for all the kind replies and interest.

I've posted pictures from Day 5 and the swelling is going down and it is starting to look "normal" again:

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Regarding the question about having a split dik, I actually had a subincision that ran about 70% down the front, including having the front of the glans split. I had that reversed a couple years ago, partly as my journey back to reverse my hate relationship with my genitals but prompted mainly due to urination issues and the fact I couldn't do a good cumshot anymore (just poured out instead). Sorry no documentary photos from that procedure! The pee hole is still pretty large, but urination is okay (I still spray if not careful) and I can ejaculate properly now.

What started this quest for a "pristine dick"? I've got a few large frenum rings, and the split head..I seem to be going in the opposite direction...Interesting.

Nice dick dragonfly

butterflyjack (imported) wrote: Thu Apr 14, 2011 1:45 pm What started this quest for a "pristine dick"? I've got a few large frenum rings, and the split head..I seem to be going in the opposite direction...Interesting.

Nice dick dragonfly

Thanks for the interest in my personal story.

I sort of explained it in the thread above. I like being male but have been oversexed all my life. Very early on (age 9) the sexual frustration got very intense -- I remember sitting in 4th grade not being able to think because I was imagining a girl in my class naked, teacher naked, etc. So something in me psychologically wanted to prove that I had control over my genitals and that manifested in me hurting them (first pierced my penis with sewing needles at age 9). I have had absolutely no other mental problems in my life, not depressed, suicidal, anti-social, or anything, and in fact have been incredibly successful in life (team captain, school president, full scholarship to university, became multi-millionaire by age 28, have beautiful doting wife and two great kids). But all that time I was on a daily basis hurting myself -- it got to where I would slam my balls in my bathroom door every morning just to start the day.

So to turn it around I've tried to attack the problem from multiple angles and am having some success (but still a daily struggle). For five years I reduced my libido by using an SSRI that had such a side effect. I then tried to normalize my sexuality, for example instead of being frustrated with not being to have sex at a certain moment instead accepting that masturbation was not a failure and is actually a positive outlet for male sexuality. I turned my self harm into a more artistic direction, with body modification. There were some obsessions I just had to complete, so I went ahead and paid dominatrixes to do them (even though they causes some harm) because I knew I'd never get it out of my system otherwise. In parallel, my wife lost 60 lbs and got in excellent shape and is suddenly very sexual. And now I'm trying to fully normalize by undoing some of the damage I had done.

That's pretty much it. Still struggle daily with urges though, but it seems to be more and more ignorable, with major self-harm happening only infrequently (every few months rather than multiple times per day).

Wow...you and I share similar histories. I have pierced my dick since my teens....and wanted my balls destroyed, removed...I think shame has/had something to do with this...We may, however, have arrived at different conclusions/ solutions to our quests...I'm fairly comfortable as I am...But I can see your angle...You are, I assume, much younger than I...and that means more sexually capable...I'm 65, my wife is 63..She's happy in a sexless situation...I have my little world...Different strokes..(hehe) dragonfly

butterflyjack (imported) wrote: Thu Apr 14, 2011 5:44 pm Wow...you and I share similar histories. I have pierced my dick since my teens....and wanted my balls destroyed, removed...I think shame has/had something to do with this...We may, however, have arrived at different conclusions/ solutions to our quests...I'm fairly comfortable as I am...But I can see your angle...You are, I assume, much younger than I...and that means more sexually capable...I'm 65, my wife is 63..She's happy in a sexless situation...I have my little world...Different strokes..(hehe) dragonfly

Yeah, I'm 38 so have a few years ahead of me (hopefully).

The shame thing is interesting too. For me, the urge to hurt my genitals was probably based on multiple things, probably in this this order:

1) desire to show I had control (mind over matter). I greatly disliked that my penis would be doing stuff on its own and that my thoughts would be interrupted and overwhelmed by sexual thoughts.

2) sexual frustration. There is not really any good outlet for a kid to satisfy his sexual urges -- he literally is going to spend ten or more years in extreme sexual frustration. Masturbation isn't a great substitute because it just isn't as good as the real thing, but for me it was worse than that because I considered masturbation a cop-out (I should be able to get the real thing). And of course no matter how liberal you are sexually, masturbation is pretty embarrassing (i.e. even if everyone does it, it would be pretty awkward to get caught doing it). So there is a sort of furtiveness with masturbation that can be psychologically unhealthy (it's like a secret, and that somehow seems wrong at some level).

3) endorphin/adrenaline rush. The self-harm definitely gives me a rush that I think I have developed some physical dependency too. There would be times when my teeth would literally be chattering while I prepared to hurt myself. One thing I realize is I didn't have a lot of good outlets for adrenaline as a kid, as I wasn't very active or aggressive. So instead of bashing other guys on a football field, I ended up with this as my adrenaline outlet.

4) shame/regret about thinking about women that way. I really like women, of all types, and a part of me felt that it was wrong/bad of me to want to do the things I wanted to do to them. Like working with a female co-worker and while she's talking all I could think about was my cock sliding into her mouth, etc.

Anyway, to counteract all the above takes a mult-faceted approach. You have to find ways to accept your sexual urges without being so concerned about control, need to accept masturbation as a legitimate outlet to relieve sexual frustration, to find adrenaline/endorphin outlets (for me that is intense weight training, boxing, and watching MMA), and need to accept that it is normal for guys to want to plug every hole in every woman they see (and that some of those women might actually like it).

Basically, I was resisting a lot of things that I needed to accept.

Yeah, and I would say acceptance of self is the most important thing, for me, anyway..So long as I don't hurt anyone.it's ok..

I recall , as a teenager how I would try, teeth gritted not to masturbate...always lost that one...Your comment about how masturbating is a good, healthy thing..but never wanted to get caught doing it rings true with me..The Shame!!! Hehe Come to think of it, it would probably be even worse today....Hey look, grandpas's whacking off...Ugh.....dragonfly