It's simple actually. I DO want a bionically implanted cannon with a calibre of at least 20mm.

Yes I'm mad like that. But I'm a geek with a serious obsession with cyber and steampunk stuff. Not to mention big on anime. My fav is probably Ghost in the Shell, so that explains a lot.

Does bring me to a line of thought related to the topic:

What does it mean for society if like in Ghost in the Shell, we could now have our consciousness moved into a cyborg body? And what does it mean for trans people? Would there be a new form of discrimination against people without "real" bodies? Would it no longer be about being trans, since we could easily get the body we wanted even if it is not a flesh and blood body?

I know that if I'm getting a cyborg body there's going to at least be a couple of hidden cannons and blades in it...

As for tackling what's strongly making me male... uh... nothing? Unless you mean the physical sex. Then uh, my chromosomes?

I have a BIG BIG problem with alot of my male secondary characteristics and I always hated them. I remember feeling heartbroken at age 11 when my voice begun to change, And I was ripping out my facial hair with tweezers at 13 before I was even able to shave I didn't want it to grow back at all. until it became too thick to do.

I did a similar thing with my body hair. I hated my body so I self harmed alot most of my body is covered in scars.

When I realized at a certain point that it was my testicles that made me into a male a huge amount of anger was directed at them and it's a big focus of my hate today.

As for the penis it's like a bad relationship.

Sometimes I get really angry that it exists at all because it's not what it's supposed to be the thought of anything touching it disgusts me and I feel like if I enjoy and of the sensations from it I'm compromising my identity. and I may lash out aggressively at it if something arouses me.

Other-times I realize I'm begin overly hard on myself and my body for it's deficiency, That just because I'm bitter about begin a biological car crash doesn't mean I'm inhuman I still have desires and a sex drive too.

To be completely honest, my testicles are my main source of frustration these days. The penis doesn't bother me much, especially when it's not always getting erect at the tiniest little thought. But pushing my testicles back into their cavities is just frustrating. They fit up there all right, but they tend to make my pubis too wide and prominent, and my panties still don't fit as comfortably as they should.

-Pebbles- (imported) wrote: Mon Nov 22, 2010 1:40 pm That just because I'm bitter about begin a biological car crash doesn't mean I'm inhuman I still have desires and a sex drive too.

That about sums up what I feel myself. So instead of blaming me, or my body, I put the blame and lash out against where it should: with society and its ignorance.

P.S. I still really REALLY want that bionically implanted cannon.

punkypink (imported) wrote: Tue Nov 23, 2010 10:57 am P.S. I still really REALLY want that bionically implanted cannon.

/me searches the Predator movie props market for a suitable item for Punky.

thirty seconds later: Here's one. (http://aap.blackaris2001.org/SIDESHOW/PPC.html)

but its only a prop. i want a real one.

punkypink (imported) wrote: Wed Nov 24, 2010 4:41 am but its only a prop. i want a real one.

Ever thought about the force of recoil from 20mm caliber firearm?

And weight too .

Ok, we are almost going offtopic here

punkypink (imported) wrote: Wed Nov 24, 2010 4:41 am but its only a prop. i want a real one.

Various small semiconductor lasers could be easily fitted inside. Just takes a little bit of wire and solder. You're on your own for the Borg-style optical tracking, though.

Off the topic of laser arms, albeit cool, I definitely agree with some of the other posts, would love to be able to do something about secondary characteristics. Even though I have been on hormones for about a year I still feel like it is going nowhere when I see my shoulders and chest:(

fhunter wrote: Wed Nov 24, 2010 4:49 am Ever thought about the force of recoil from 20mm caliber firearm?

And weight too .

Ok, we are almost going offtopic here

Sweet glorious recoil. It'd be orgasmic everytime I fire it.

Of course I'd have cybernetic enhancements throughout my body so I can actually fire the damn thing.

And no, it isnt offtopic, since it actually is part of the whole body image dysmorphia.