So after alot of inward thinking and discussion with several people whom I can trust with this 'issue', I have decided that I am going to try chemical castration and if it suits me then have an orchiectomy.

I personally (no outside pressure to be a certain way), have decided that I am truly male, just very curious of females. I have several goals I am going to reach before I start using anti-androgens, mainly to lose the 40+lbs I have gained since my leaving the military and to knock out the last little bit of debt I have. I am also restarting both therapy and LHR. Once I am closer to my prefered weight/ body size then I will talk to my doc about starting the chemical castration process. With the ultimate goal of an orchiectomy.

Thanks for all the help, sometimes it really does help to just be able to get it out of your system on the Web and then thinking it through is so much easier. I will still be active on here as well as on Trueselves.com