LH-RH Zoladex LA 10.8mg Implant

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

Unlucky I only found this in Dutch language

http://www.astrazeneca.nl/_mshost153018 ... ctie-m.swf

loveUall

Jean

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

At the beginning of my thread "castreer pedofiel" (posting number 3)

I wrote in Dutch:

Dat ik dat onderhoud met "Spits" zou hebben wist ik toen ik deze posting hier deed. Ik vond het gelet op eerdere ervaringen niet nodig om het achterste van mijn tong te laten zien. Ik ben ook maar een mens, ondanks dat IQ en die bijbehorende versnelling. Ik neem gigantische privee risico's, mede in het belang van iedereen hier die nergens terecht kan voor een vrijwillig gewenste operatie. Je weet verdomde goed, dat als je de "pedo" speelt in Nederland, dat je leven dan niet meer zo zeker is.

En dan gooi je even een balletje in de ring hier, kunnen ze laten zien hoe menselijk ze zijn. Hoe fijn ze aanvoelen dat iemand (menselijk) op sommige momenten even dat hart onder de riem nodig heeft.

Lekkers dus om je dat even hier in het nederlands te kunnen vertellen....

I knew that I was going to have that interview with Spits as I did this posting here. Because of my experience before, I didn't have the feeling to tell all. I am just human even with a high IQ and that possibility to speed up. I am taking gigantic personal risks, also in the interest of every one who can go nowhere for the desired operation. You know very well that if one is "playing" the paedophile here in the Netherlands, he isn't even sure of his life anymore.

And then you just trow up a ball in this ring (E.A) , so they can show how human they are How they can feel that some-one (human) at certain moments really needs that little human support

Just nice to have the chance to tell you this in Dutch............

I remember that I have asked Paolo to get rid of those ugly yellow stars next to my name. I am scared of them, to become the same ivory tower

Would be so nice if Paolo could find a program that first shows those stars and then have them drop into a trash one by one

Can any of you tell me what do you have to be proud of????

don't worry,

I do

loveUall

Jean

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

Update: June 16

Not a nice update

The first week brought me back a lot of health problems Androcur had finished before. Lucky they are fading again.

But somehow, after about six weeks of no activity at all on androcur, there is something wrong with getting erections....

It looks (and feels damned) like I have got a rupture in the left corpus cavernosum. Erections, (which I shouldn't have) are extremely painful.Nothing has happened to it that makes me understand this problem.

As I tried yesterday if I could get to an orgasm, it didn't take long, only I was in a hell of pain. First I thought it was a dry orgasm, but I guess it was just the extreme pain that had hold me back from shooting my load. After about a minute cum was dripping away. I thought and hoped that the zoladex would stop this, and up to the information it should be on its result by now.

There are problems at my work, we are missing three people, so I am overdoing. Saturday , I started at 1.00am, and as I was delivering newspapers without a brake, near 8.30am my headache became so immense, that my view became only two dimensional. I couldn't recognize any depths anymore, and I was happy I got my car home without accidents.

Maybe it was me, not taking care about myself, or does this have to do anything with the zoladex...I don't know

One of the respected members of this board is trying to connect me with people in my country who are willing to help, as this is getting out of control.

I have forwarded my "help"alert to a transgender team, he contacted for me.

Not that I am going to change, but because I guess this moment I need to find a professional who knows what he is talking about.

I hope I get a response. I 'll keep you informed

loveUall

Jean

and thanks "this one" for taking my help request serious and all the effort you are taking to help me. loveU

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

Update 19 june

I guess my last update showed clearly that I was not happy and not comfortable with the way people toke care about my health.

My family doctor is a nice fellow, unlucky for me, he is married. I always could talk to him about anything, and he, as I have that strange kind of humor.

If everything goes wrong, or you know that you are going to die, have a good joke about it. I could change doctors, but I am not going to change him

He has admitted before that my questions and problem were out of his range, so I needed specialists. That is what they are there for. He agreed about the urologist, he agreed about the psychiatrist a.s.o.

But this morning I got the feeling that I had to go back to basics, and tell him I didn't trust the whole fucking story anymore, that I felt terrible about it.

I went there to make an appointment, but he heard me, and a few things I said. I had to wait little over an hour before he could see me.

The result:

A bone density scan planned for the first week of July

We will take another testosterone bloodtest when I have the implant 4 weeks, so in little less than 2 weeks, and we will compare that result with the testing the day before I got that implant

He toke the telephone, I guess, I don't need to translate, and the girl at the office from the urologist got a bit quiet.

I probably do have two ruptures ( I can't tell clearly by english sorry) at my left corpus cavernosum. They might be not ruptures by a trauma, but from

?interstitial tissue).? It is possible that the period of "non use" allowed this tissue to harden more, and getting damaged by the renewed erections

I do have a new consult at the urologist in less then a week

And the best news...... I went swimming today, nice kids there, cute....

as I was looking the kids, somebody must have taken my hamburger again, as there was nothing anymore. (And I still sure don't like fish)

Feeling nothing can be a damned good feeling

loveUall

Jean

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

Update 28 June

On July 13 I will become circumcised. Not a wish, a need. The healing may take long as this time they will not be working at healthy issue. My foreskin and glans love each other that much that they grow together, and of course like to rip again. Yeah, funny. There is also indeed a rupture at the left corpus cavernosum, but there is little to do about it. It should get better by time. An operation would not be a promise for a faster or better result

The urologist was surprized about how aggressive the testosterone peak from the zoladex had hit me. Somehow after my family doctors call, he seems to listen. I could explain him how hard it was for me to notice that testosterone brought back all the negative feelings I want to kick out. I got a chance to explain him why I would not be happy over years to be on some med like zoladex, (even if it works,) he should make it permanent. I could see a change at his face "We will see". On July 23 I will have a consult with a sexologist.....so I agree: We will see (not taking No for an answer just like that)

The day before my implant, my testosterone was checked

5.4 I had no idea what 5.4 means, I started thinking about pos/m3 but with my 92,5 litre that would be twice the number: 10.8 (same as the zoladex)

So I was happy as the urologist explained that this was "Normal" (this, not I)

July 1 I will have another testosterone check, I wonder.............

Last night it was me who got hot flashes (never had them with the androcur)

I love them. If you knew about my fever attacks (from testosterone) and the awful cold that is going with them, I sure prefer hot flashes.

So maybe, just maybe, the zoladex is coming to a level androcur could never reach

I will keep you updated

loveUall

Jean

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

Update 10 July

I got the results of the bloodtest last monday. Testosterone level 0,7

Getting a bosom (the doctor agreed) is still a small problem and if it is getting a big problem we are going to shoot it ( at the cost of the insurance)

I got the results of my visit to my former minor friend last sunday, and I needed a break, had a time out for a few days. I still need to find out what to tell and where to shut up

I feel great (sure after sunday), the low testosterone allows me to be lazy. Things I had to fight, are now gone.( not what should go down first!!!)

And still the strange thing.....I do feel more and more energy, no lost of power and most certainly not in for dysphoria

Maybe I am just that big kid that never should have been poisoned by testosterone at all (and before some start to yammer: I am talking about an adult big kid)

Next Monday 9.00 am. The hospital: circumcision. No I don't worry about Monday, have a nice sleep and the doctor should do his job. On Tuesday I hope to restart a part of my job ( nuts, I know) What I do worry about is the condition of the tissue he has to work at, and how that is going to heal

(big shit)

loveUall

Jean

[Jean Op den Kamp (imported)]

update 14 July

Yesterday I got my circumcision. What can I say?

I have never fucked any-one or anything in my life, and I sure hope it stays that way

Today I now why.....

The operation, as far as I was awake was no problem.

Getting a nap was so easy, and this is sure one of the best ways to sleep, no dreams, no jail, no doors. Why can't we have an operation a day, or like M.J. have a private doctor with that instant sleep.

Started working this morning at 5.00,..... loving all the help that was offered

My concerns:...The healing, as the signs of Lichen are still visible at the wound

Oh, and before I forgot, had my bone densitometric ( DEXA) scan last week

No hurry to ask about the results as they only become important after the second scan in about 18 months

loveUall

Jean

ps If maybe you dreamed about global warming last night...forget about it, that was me having hot flushes.............