ramses (imported) wrote: Thu Apr 02, 2009 7:30 am
Low T is hardly a guarantee of less anger and more happiness. I was far more irritable and unhappy with low T (although I did love some of the effects).
You may have other issues you need to work with that have nothing to do with testosterone. It could be more of an issues with depression or you could just be an asshole and don't like yourself and the world around you. Lower T won't fix most of those things.
Yeah, maybe I'm just an asshole. It would mean that I didn't change that much as I thought. One thing is for sure, I didn't like myself and the world as I was seeing it.
But if I didn't change, why am I not getting mad at you. Why is this so easy to take. I became far more vulnerable, because I don't block things out anymore that I don't like. Little things that touch me, sometimes make me cry, and that never happend before. I feel that I"m leaving the aversion about things that happend in the past behind me. I am helping people who hurt me in the past, just because I can leave things behind me.
If I compare my feelings with the past, I never want to find back to that old situation. And, no, I am not that sure about myself, but I love the world and the people around me more and more. I accept that I get hurt sometimes, as it seems to belong to live.
I had my thoughts about a depression many times. All
mrt (imported) wrote: Thu Apr 02, 2009 10:46 am
the ingredients were there. As MRT is saying (thanks):
I had all the symptoms of mental depression. Serious mood issues (Anger just pissed off), Lack of ener
gy, mental fog (I found it impossible to read a book)
[or in my case even to get out of my bed]
I know that feeling, but I need to go back to remember it. Lucky, as it was big shit.
Ramses, I feel happy this moment, I am glad with al those changes as I cannot find anything negative about them. If it is not the testosterone, what the hell is trying to pull me back.
Your replies are many times sharp. Please don't keep me waiting that long again. Please answer me one question, why DID you wait that long? Was it because you were affraid to hurt, or was it me hurting you slowly to a point that you had to react. Or is there a point of view I don't see?
loveU (I think)
Jean