Yoli here, snackin' as I speak.
It's understandable that one might feel conflicted when one feels a sexual attraction to one's own gender, even if there is no actual activity but. rather, a "fantasy" that creates or enhances arousal.
Though I am speaking as a bisexual female I can easily understand Kantfeel's "dilemma". Admitting, even to one's self, that such an attraction exists can be confusing, frightening, and cause self-doubt, guilt, and so on.
In my case, my first pleasurable sexual experience was with another female..."Ohh, we were in college and had consumed some booze, and, well..."
I was amazed at and delighted with the sight, smell, feel, etc., of my friends body; even the sounds she made but, once the orgasms were past, the demon of doubt crept in. "Am I a...Gasp!...Lesbian? Will I ever be normal? What will my parents say? Oh God! What if she tells someone here on campus?"
Somehow, with her help, I got through all that rather rapidly, as I hope Kant will.
Now, though if given a choice as to what gender to be marooned on a tropical isle with I'd opt for an intact
, I am at ease with my dual sexuality. In fact, I am deeeeeeeeeeeelighted! Numerically, most of my very active sex life consists of female-female activity since my one intact male (with his wife, also a lover of mine,) is stationed elsewhere and my one treasured eunuch lover lives in a far-flung part of the
state.
I have to face it...I am one horny girl, seemingly moreso since I've just squeaked past the Big Three-O. So, if my needs are more easily met by a select little coven of female lovers, fine!...even if geographics make it so.
Kantfeel, I hope you'll come to a peaceful acceptance of whom you are, sexually speaking. Whether you finally act out a male-male scenario or keep it at fantasy level, you owe it to yourself to be "OK with it".
You think YOU have fantasies? Well, be aware that I'm already tripping on the idea of watching you performing your first oral sex as a newly "frocked" eunuch. Of course, I'd prefer I be the lucky recipient, but watching you giving a BJ to another male, maybe even the one who just took your balls off scant minutes before, would be enough to scorch my panties!
See? It's OOOOOKAYYYY!
Best of luck!
Yoli
Just some crazy lady in San Antonio.
) of experiencing the delights offered by heterosexual AND lesbian fun, often in a bisexual setting, I feel perfectly free to fantasize OR act out re all of the wonderful variations that can be shared by consenting adults. Add to that the special sexual fun and deep friendship that I share with a "real, live," castrated guy and the visual kick (no sex!) sometimes afforded by his two likewise castrated friends when they visit too, and I have pretty much lived, and continue to live, my fondest fantasies.