I dream of becoming nullo

[Mykonosguy (imported)]

When I was 3, my mother first threatened to cut off my dick because I had an erection in the bath and she thought I was being dirty. From then on, it became a game of hide and seek whenever I had an erection but the carving knife did come into the bathroom a couple of times. The last time I remember her threatening me, I was 11 and, once again, erect in the bath. This time she called the gardener and told him to bring the carving knife.

By the time I was 6, I was fantasising regulary about my dick coming off. I can't tell you the number of ways I thought of making it happen - slicings, burnings - you name it and I probably thought about it. At 13 came puberty and the realisation that, if I stroked my dick, very pleasant sensations resulted and that thinking about my dick coming off made the sensations even greater. One of the most frequent was by deliberately putting my dick in a miniature guillotine, clamping it in place so I couldn't withdraw and the calculatedly pressing the blade's release button. I've fantasised about taking it off and having it taken off for years (more than 40). Sometimes I think of taking it off myself but most times, I spread my legs and let someone else take it from me. It normally ends up in a display cabinet - usually set in resin - but occasionally someone oe sme animal eats it.

I am married and have adult offspring and through all of that the desire has never left me. I want to be dickless and I want to be that way soon.

[Mykonosguy (imported)]

It's me writing again. Since posting this yesterday, I have been unable to get the thought of being nullo out of my mind. It has become a positive craving.....a yearning that I can feel right down in the base of my cock and a tingling around my balls. My head and my cock are saying "Please won't someone cut me".

[bobbie (imported)]

I would think some professional help would be best for you. Sounds like you had some very bad experiences as a child and need to talk them out. Castration and removal of the penis is not the answer at this time. Please talk to a Counselor or psychiatrist for help.

[spankey2 (imported)]

Hi! Just to add a bit of information... You seem to be caught up in an Obsessive Compulsive loop. The best thing you can do is see a health care profesional. When we get obsesive all else seems to make no sense. All we focus on is the focus that we don't want to focus on. LOL! Please seek some type of help. Good luck, spankey2

[coinflipper_21 (imported)]

The mother in the bath scene keeps coming up in threads from time to time. Honestly, how many of you remember your mother threatening to cut your penis off? I think it happens more often than most men would admit. It is one of my earliest memories and I remember taking the threat very seriously at the time.

[Mykonosguy (imported)]

I think my mother's threats had a lot to do with it. Anyhow, now all I really want is to be free of the whole lot and the sooner the better. Unfortunately, my wife would freak if she even thought I might do it and my marriage is still important, so it definitely won't happen just yet.

When I finally get to do it, I wonder if there is anyone here in South Africa who would do it for me or whether I'd have to go out of the country

[gandalf (imported)]

The mother in the bath scene keeps coming up in threads from time to time. Honestly, how many of you remember your mother threatening to cut your penis off? I think it happens more often than most men would admit. It is one of my earliest memories and I remember taking the threat very seriously at the time.

I remember it and I was about three at the time. I lay awake many nights waiting for her to come in and do it. I still think of it often, especially now that I am ballless and bagless.

[Mykonosguy (imported)]

I remember it and I was about three at the time. I lay awake many nights waiting for her to come in and do it. I still think of it often, especially now that I am ballless and bagless.

I envy you. I really do.

[Mykonosguy (imported)]

I envy you. I really do.2 years since I posted the last piece on this site and I'm still longing for someone to cut me. Penis Guillotine is becoming more and more attractive. All strapped in and unable to get out and someone pressing the lever before I have a chance to cum Absolute bliss!!!!!.....and not to have anyweight hanging between my legs would bve fantastic.