[I WISH TO BE VERY CLEAR HERE! MY OWN CASTRATION BY MYSELF ALMOST KILLED ME. THIS IS NO JOKE. IF YOU WISH TO BE CASTRATED FIND YOURSELF A DOCTOR! I DID ALMOST DIE.
I was a very large fan of BMEZine and of this sight. I wanted to end the testosterone in my body. My arms burned with desire and so did my penis. i decdied to end that by castrating myself. At that time there were many articles on chemcial castration by injection. Of course it was about animals not humans. I on the other hand saw this as a way out. I figured out the chemical composition of the gel to be injected, bought the chemicals and mixed them by myself. I then injected way way more than the dose prescribed.
The pain was tremendous and I sat with an Ice pack on my testicles for 3 days. I finally could move again, but the chemicals were working and it was at best uncomfortable all the time. More than a dull ache, less than 911. soon my scrotem opened up and began to spew pus and dead tissue. It swelled and became very painful. I had to go to a Doctor and explain what happened. He gave me some pain meds, took a sample of the pus and sent me to a urologist. I was examined and I was told I would need surgery to remove all the dead tissue inside of the scrotum. I was also told that my penis may have to be removed as it had also become infected with staf.
I WAS NOT TO HAPPY! I WAS IN A LOT OF PAIN ! IT WAS NOT EXCTING, SEXY, OR SOMETHING I WANTED.
I had the operation and it soon became a mess. I was so infected that the wounds would not heal. I had to have infussions of anit-biotics for 3 months before the wound began to close. During that time, I was depressed, sullen and wanted to die. As it turnned out, I lost both testicles. I have my scrotum, and my penis. I am prone to infections, and I suffer from prostatitus and urethritus. Fun? Not!
I do love being a Eunuch. I am at peace, I do not ache of desire, I do not get testosterone poisioning. I am on a low dose estrogen and I also have the Eunuch Calm. It turrned out ok. Not great but ok.
I want to thank Andrew, wherever he is, Riverwind and all the characters that kept me going with their advise and help.
If you want to be a Eunuch I know the only way is the right way.
Durring the recovery period I finished my degree program and am a LISW in the area of sexuality and alternative life styles. LOL
I am more than willing to help those in need at no cost. This place helped me, and I am more than grateful to help others. spankey2/ aka scottie