ephemeral (imported) wrote: Tue Sep 27, 2005 4:29 am
I did get quite tired with no testosterone but I wonder if female HRT would help with that. I expect female hormones would probably reduce my ability to orgasm but as someone said, Kelly I think - whats the big deal about orgasm anyway? I can really enjoy my body and that of another without it.
My first round of Rx female HRT, I learned a lot. (just started an herbal alternative last night(no funds to cover Rx)). Anyway... back to the topic. Orgasms. Well, I guess I should talk about the mechanics of stimulation first.
There's so much I could talk about, but that'd take a whole book. I'll just work with one sense right now: touch (ALL of them are important, but tactile sensation is probably the only thing that can be controlled adequately and immediately).
<warning, you will probably think a lot of this is utter bullshit, and that is your right>
I have learned that there really is NO SUCH THING as an erogenous zone, ie: an area of the body that is specifically linked to sexual enjoyment. ANY part of the body can be stimulated in a sexual way, even the back of your hand. Sure there are extra sensitive areas; breasts, ears, mouth, sexual organs, etc, but these areas also have an insanely high nerve count. It only makes sense that they would be used for sexual, er, stuff. Now, why do I mention this? Society. In the world at large (to my knowledge, aside from some religions) males are brought up worshiping their penis. They can't get past it, because it is so obvious. They get so locked onto it that they don't bother looking further, and it is the only thing they can experience sex through (until you get into buttsex, of course).
Women, on the other hand, get a larger variety of goodies to play with. They've got boobies, and vaginers, and all sorts a' curvy bits. Males enjoy playing with these bits, thus women are more all-inclusive in their wiring. They experience sex with their whole being, instead of through a quite falliable leather balloon.
This isn't limited to just sex, either. Women allow themselves to feel much more than men do, all the time. Why do you think womens' clothes are so soft, and have tight, flat seams? Same reason mens' clothes are the opposite: women can feel their clothes, men want discomfort to ignore.
(note: this was explained to me QUITE bluntly by the girl living in the room behind my eyes, even before I knew what the hell I am. She is a very good cranial electrician.)
Okay, so barring the oddball (not a pun) that breaks away from programming, you can see (and hopefully not disagree too much with) my theory's foundation.
And that's just SOCIETY's part, merely programming that can be BROKEN, with a mere thought, and a tickle(or possibly a wardrobe expansion *shivers at the feel of super-high thread count uber-stretchy cotton shifting across its back*). If childhood/adolescence can program something so stupid into the mind of a young male, just imagine what testosterone(or, *wink-wink* estrogen), an incredibly powerful neurological agent, will do to tactile sensations.
<Observed, yet personal FACTS. YMWV>
After a couple of weeks on estrogen (estradiol, 1mg/day) I noticed a sudden JUMP in the length of orgasm. Maximum 7 secs(old) to average of 15 secs. Slightly, only very slightly less intense (though sometimes much, much more intense, to the point that I wouldn't have the energy to masturbate again for 3 days).
Not long after this, I got to thinking about the differences in the mechanical sensations for men and women. I had all the info sorted already, I just hadn't sat down to digest it, collate it, and prepare the report for my conscious mind (I was still trying to define myself, no time for reports on the difficulties of programming a human). But I worked at a fairly automated job at the time, so I had a lot of idle brain cycles.
I decided to put the information I had just compiled to use. One weekend (I gave myself a lot of time to play around, in case I got it right) I got out the 'ol palm, and lay down to wank it good. I did a bit of image training first, visualizing all the parts of my body, all the nerves 'n stuff, feeling around to see how they were connected, locking them into various states of feel. (equivalent to the opposite of not feeling pain, just takes practice). Then I sorta re-wired my body. Only took a thought, really, and while it wasn't permanent, I can switch to super-feel in an instant (I'm kinda scared to, but the reason is coming). Then I looked at the alarm clock for the first time. (I missed the times for some things, but the important ones I can't forget if I try)
So I'm lying in bed, drowning in horny feeliness. I look at my cock, and demand it be a clit(I was going for the fabled multiple orgasms women are known for). It's uncut, so in all actuality it has the exact same hardware as the standard clitoris (well, i've had some metal bits installed since then, but you get the point). Well, since I had just turned my 'rod' into a 'bud', I decided it should be handled in a manner fitting its form (imagination at work).
I had never tried any of this before, well, in the purpose, but not the method. I experimented with different angles of rub, different pressures, different speeds. Due to my uncutness, my head is hypersensitive, and while I could take a great deal of pressure, any speed at all was just too intense to bear. After about 45 minutes (and a LOT of spit-lube), I finally found something that worked, I got into a groove, and waited for something to happen.
0917 : It happened slowly, like a sunrise. I started feeling a 'whiteness' (I use 'white' because it felt LITERALLY like a color) start creeping into me. There was a small seed of this pure white energy sitting somewhere around mid-abdomen. It felt very, VERY good. I felt it as much as I could, until I noticed another feeling. One that I couldn't have ignored if I'd been dead.
0921 : It was white as well, but different. It had a little blue in it, and while the first one was warming and comfortable, this new one was aggressive, and full of power, jagged, and hungry. I wanted it, and it wanted to consume me. (I might point out that I should probably have called it quits right here. I was already well past the pleasure/pain boundary.) So there was this powerful, electric feeling building at my extremities (Hands/feet). It just (rather annoyingly) kept building. It was almost like the surge before orgasm that I normally experienced. After a little while building, it started creeping up. Elbows, knees, back. I lost control of my breathing. I managed not to shout, but only barely (seems it isn't ALL fake).
0924 : I'm thrashing about quite badly, I catch a glimpse of the clock as I flail and pant obscenities, and I STILL haven't reached the top of the climax. It just keeps building and building, the blue-white lightning washing back and forth in waves, my vision going white for spells.
0931 : After roughly SEVEN minutes of building up TO orgasm, I literally can't take anymore. I have reached sensory overload, and my body stops responding. Every muscle goes limp, all at once, and I lie paralyzed for half an hour, unable to do more than blink and try to catch my breath as the cold sweat evaporates.
It's been two years since that first experiment, and though I've tried to repeat it several times, I'm just too damn scared to go all the way. There are some points of note to consider, however.
The way I did it, it would work for a completely limp dick (mine went down to half-wood about twenty seconds into the experiment, due to overstimulation).
Probably anybody can do it. All you have to do is change the way you think a bit.
Meditation/mind-body control techniques will probably intensify/prolong the time you have to enjoy yourself.
A partner would be a BIG help, especially if you have an anal toy handy, but you'd have to work together very well.
I'd be glad to answer any specific questions any of you might have in greater detail. Just cut-quote or PM me, heck even AIM me @ airforsguy, and I'll do my best to help you explore what works for you.
Disclaimer: Your Mileage WILL Vary. This worked for me, and will probably work for a lot of people (well, the ones with sexual organs anyway), but I make NO guarantees. It will probably not happen fast, and it will probably end only in being incredibly worn out a few times. I (mentally) trained very hard (though not specifically for this) before I even attempted this, and withouht knowing myself as well as I do, would not have even been able to start.
Cheers ♥Jessy!♥ for digging this post out! So many people I meet who just assume that "castration is the end of the sex life for all eunuchs". True - without Mother Nature forcing heavy urges on eunuchs I suppose it could be for those who choose this path. But important to remember this is not in all cases 
I suppose it all comes under the heading of gender dysphoria.
