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[feedback (imported)]

Hi. I am 60 years old, married with kids and grandkids. About 30 years ago I started to lose interest in sex and generally felt awful. I lost all my sex drive and my testicles shank and got soft and I lost all my body hair. It took the doctors 10 years to figure out what was was wrong. After many surgeries and radiation they put me on HRT and it was like going through puberty all over again. Problem is I did not like who I was this way. I was short tempered and aggressive and very self centred. I hated my balls and wanted them gone. I tried to kill them with banding and other abuse. I finally started to cut back on the HRT and I take just enough to stay healthy. I don't feel male or female, just gender neutral and I like it this way. I could be what ever replacement I take and I chose to be a eunuch. Now I would like to find help to remove my balls as they don't work and are useless to me. I have ever thought about having my penis removed but my wife would have me commited if I went that far.

[jlc9292 (imported)]

Hi Feedback,

Your story is much the same as mine. I am over 60 now but had a bilateral orchiectomy at 59. I had been on hrt for quite a few years and it did make me agressive, angry without cause, moody, and a host of other things. I too wanted to have them gone and began to be abusive to them including banding and freezing. I had pain, varicose vein, swollen and hard epididymis, auto immune issues, atropy and other things. My wife and I discussed it and we decided we would be better off with them gone. I found a Urologist that would do it and it was done over 5 years ago. I am now off HRT but will probably will begin low doses in the near future. I like the way I feel off HRT but for other health reasons I will probably take a little. I have been below 15 total Testosterone for the past 8 months. Believe me, if you are like I was, your wife will appreciate the new you. Good luck in your decision.

[nullorchis (imported)]

I am over 60 years of age. Here's my point of view.

Throughout all my life, I wanted to be castrated.

Then I entered andropause and had great difficulty with tiredness, muscle mass reduction, loss of concentration, confusion, weakness, etc.

Prior to this I had enormous anxiety, frustration, occasional anger.

There is no justice.

Testosterone, or lack of it, just seems to be bad baggage.

One thing I found, as my testosterone level reduced, my interest in having my balls removed reduced. There is almost a direct connection. When I went on TRT, my desire to be castrated increased. When I reduced/stopped TRT, my interest in castration decreased.

Adjusting my TRT to a level that will help prevent osteporosis, but not "stimulate" me, has been the answer. But it has taken one year of experimentation to get to that point; and still, there are occasional deviations where I my T is too high, or too low.

There are no quick, simple, easy formulas. To each his own.

My perspective is that reduction/elimination of T, whether by natural forces, chemical effects, or castration, is what dominates me. As long as my T is low, I am not driven to be castrated (although the lingering desire is still there).

[feedback (imported)]

I have been on 2.5 grams of androgel for about a year. For part of that time I only used1.25 grams a day. The normal dose is 5 to 10 grams a day. My wife likes the calmer more layed back me. I quite like to meet her needs without worrying about mine. Wish I could find some help up here to rid me of these things.

[feedback (imported)]

Its hard to find the right levels and it will depend on what you are doing physically. You are right about the need to castrated being not as strong on low T replacement. If I stop all replacement I don't even think about them or sex for that matter.