I have been visiting EA for about 4 years now. My desire to be a eunuch has been there for a good while before. To the extent of wanting to control my sex drive ever since I learned how to masterbate at 15. I was farley Asexual befrore then and devoted more of my life to my pleasurable interests and hobbies. I dearly want to go out and have a life again, things have been stressfully the last few years. Toped off with the death of my mom and me taking over the family business. Life just has not been the same since. I fall into the habit of going out and distracting myself and not getting things done. There is no better distraction for me then a few hours of jacking off
Perhaps the best example of how I feel about this is at 9:30 min into this Ted talk It speaks to an old experiment with a rat. I feel im that rat and keep perusing the bar between my legs. At the cost of the rest of my life.
http://www.ted.com/talks/nancy_etcoff_o ... nt_it.html
My lust would also tell you that there is no stronger, though except mabe another extreme kink of mine, Idea that gets me going then having my balls removed.
Things are under control and going well, but I would love to spend more time in a day doing other things. I think im going to try out chemical castration soon hear and see just what a reduced drive will do for me.
