Entschuldigung auch für mein Deutsch jetzt meinen Wortschazt manchmal ist nicht genug wollte ich dich auf deiner Sparche begrussen. So gehe ich auf Englisch weiter:)
First we all really learn to respect ourselves and we need to learn to care, to love ourselves more...
We may all think of different body modifications as simple as a small tattoo then piercings and also as huge/big modification like castration which is really irreversable under current medical technology.
So dear, you should really not think twice but think at least ten times of what u wish or want for...
Because dreaming of it can be very very much different then the reality of it. At the age 19 which all genders have high running hormones and can get crazy about sex, you may understandbly have a high sexual level which can surpass the logic and can cause some real problems...
So if u even really think anything about castration please go and take not some but alot of information first from a psychiatrist for possible future mental side effects and also got get advice from a medical doctor (if possible) about psychological and bodily side effects.
And just try to enjoy your age and the nice consequences of that lovely age and years beyond...
Mit Freundlichen Grüsse
P.S: Auch personlich denke ich dass, dein Alt ist so so so früh für jede operation als Kastierung usw so bitte PASS DICH AUF