I have made my first step

[nonsex (imported)]

AJ enjoy reading your journey into castration. Good luck my friend.

[AtlantaJim (imported)]

Here we go with yet another update, 7 weeks in and I have had some weird happenings this week I have not changed my dosage at all but have had some recurrence of erections, I wonder if this is my bodies last gasp of trying to produce T? Masterbation which I do not do often has become a huge let down, but I am thankful for that, my orgasms are very short and very unfullfilling its very much why bother. No depression as of yet and my energy levels although lower have sort of tapered off and evened out. The only real issue is the night sweats I have they are like clock work I wake up soaked and remain awake for about an hour then go back to sleep. I wonder if I should up my dosage abit to control my T production better? I have had some very strong sexual thoughts as of late, it's almost like my body is making that last gasp before things really change. Well thats all for know I da appreciate all the feed back and support and Hope to here from more of you in the future.

AJ

[Lee Jones (imported)]

I made a first step too. Living in the USA close to Mexico, where Androcur can be bought without prescription, I went over and got it.

The pharmacist asked me why I wanted it. I answered, "because of the way women treat me. They laugh at me and take advantage of me and never show me any offection".

Once you start taking it, <crossed arms gesture, meaning all finished>. I then replied, "fine with me, because my sexual ability is just no use to me." After I was handed the box of thirty tablets he said, "When you're down to a three-day supply, just come back here and I'll order more from the factory."

After a month and a half of taking one a day, I sat down in a chair and didn't mo ve all day. I then decided to stop taking it, saying to myself "Hey, this is self-destructive."

But I did, on two occasions since then, take five tablets, when faced with a mean rejection.

Why would people on IRC react with hatred toward me and ban me, for talking about Androcur. It seems to me, so liberating to have an alternative to taking the crap that women dish out! And heaven knows that there are plenty of desperate men out there!

[cb2000user (imported)]

Lee, what was the cost from the mexican pharmacy?

[nonsex (imported)]

AJ do not increase your dosage, stay on course. I too wanted to eliminate erections, but was unable to on the Siterone alone. If you are like me you will still be able to attain erections. However when you no longer care to take any action you will realize that you are castrated as did I. Sometimes masturbation is just from habit, I wondered why I was doing it because I to was experiencing weak unfulfilling orgasms with very little, watery ejaculate. Also they were easily attained, almost like "premature ejaculation" I thought. I did not have to masturbate, I simply just stopped doing it and have not missed it since. It was about 6 months into my second test with this drug that I finally realized I was castrated. You stated orgasms are unfulfilling now, The drug is working, give it some time. Just because you become erect does not mean you must masturbate, abstain if you can, and my bet is at this point you can. Try to focus you thoughts elsewhere and don't dwell on your own sexuality or lack there of. Good Luck.

[AtlantaJim (imported)]

nonsex,

I think I understand what you mean masterbation is more of a habit now, the main reason I sought castration is my overwhelming sex drive I was obsessed with internet porn, hell I was obsessed with sex in general. I would get it anyway I could since starting on the drugs I feel much calmer, I at this point look at people for things other than sex. I still find things erotic but its in a completely different way, its very hard to describe. I do know that I feel much better about myself I am more caring about things do not get me wrong I still get mad/pissed but its different, emotionally this trip is hard to explain but I will tell everyone this---- I like the place I am at right now.

AJ

[unencumbered (imported)]

I agree with nonsex. I am just finishing my third month of Cyproterone and Tamoxifen and I still wake up in the morning with erections but they are not as strong as before. They go away quickly and I’m flaccid once again. Early morning is when one’s testosterone is at its highest level so this makes sense to me.

When I first noticed them I was taking 25 mg of Cypro and I increased the amount to 50 mg two weeks ago but the results were the same.

I can only count two intense sexual dreams since being on Cypro. I sleep with my wife every night but I am no longer aroused to have sex with her all the time, like I always was before. When she wants it I can still quickly get an erection and I enjoy sex with her, however.

Next week I will have a testosterone test to objectively see what level I'm at so that I am not basing whether I am castrated or not just on subjective observations.

[nonsex (imported)]

AJ, it is important you like the place you are at now, I am happy for you. A lot of these changes you will be going through are so gradual and so subtle you will not really notice them. Ones mental state without being clouded by hormones is a great place to be. However it is easy to fall into depression.

[hkeunuch (imported)]

Hi Nonamesplease. While I have been on Androcur and Tamoxifen on-and-off for the past 4 years, my circumcised cock has shrivelled back inside its shaft skin to look like a small uncut cock all the time. But like you, I do still get the "morning wood." by which, I mean that it never gets truly hard at all. It gets just large and strong enough to poke its glans partially through the shaft skin to look something like my original soft cut cock. But it remains shorter than what it used to be so the glans remains partially covered.

[Riven (imported)]

Hi AJ,

I haven't been on the EA recently but I wanted to look in on your progress. I have read several guys' report not knowing if they have achieved castration when doing it chemically. Even when done surgically some still report more sexual ability than they expected. I should imagine that by now you must have achieved castrate levels. Most importantly, it sounds like it's still going well for you. Mostly that your mood seems good, which is great. I wish I could tolerate the hot flushes as well as you can. I think you must have a very buoyant personality.

All the best

Riven