I have made my first step

[AtlantaJim (imported)]

Well I did it after thinking and researching I have decided to go ahead and order the drugs to start chemical castration I have been putting it off for some time and with encouragement from some friends I have made here have decided to take the first step. I should recieve the drugs I ordered in about 2 weeks and will post a running blog here to chart my progress. I am so excited I may need to take matters into hand lol.

[bobbie (imported)]

Let me be the first to wish you luck on your test run.

[Losethem (imported)]

Yes Jim. Please keep me informed and stay in touch.

--LT

[vesal_mas (imported)]

Me too, I wish you very good luck in your journey.

Many people will be following this and will be open to help you.

Take care !

Vesal.

[AtlantaJim (imported)]

Well all my siterone has arrived it took about 16 days but if I look at the actual date it shipped it was right at 14 so I have taken my first pill, and am sure I will see no changes nor feel them for at least 2 weeks but I am very excited. My current stats are as follows:

flacid 4"

circ 4.5"

test circ 8"

erect 7"

circ erect 6.5"

vol little more than a table spoon

will try to post weekly updates as things move along. I feel a strange sense of well being and of course excitement.

My first dosage will be 100mg daily , at 1 50mg pill am and pm that seems to be the conventional wisdom here on the board.

Well I hope this all works as I hope, if it does I will take the next big step and become a full eunuch!

[Riven (imported)]

Do keep us posted AtlantaJim,

I hope it goes well for you.

[bobbie (imported)]

100mg is a great starting place. Stay there for at least a month. One measurement you should be taking is the circumference around your testicles. They will shrink. Use a thick string to measure them. If they reduce in size you will know that they are being shut down. The penis measurements are always a guess. As you get more limp you will find it more difficult to get measurement to repeat. Even now you can get different soft measurements at different times during a day.

[AtlantaJim (imported)]

Thanks Riven and bobbie.

Bobbie the circ messurment was for my testicular circumfrence which was as meassured, I have taken 100mg so far and of course no changes well maybe emotionally but thats all in my mind I am just so happy to be taking this step.

[Riven (imported)]

Bobbie, you're quite right about the penis measurements. Flaccid size varies a lot with temperature, and erect measurements might become academic when it no longer reaches full hardness. But I can understand why AtlantaJim wants to keep records (BTW AJ, thats a nice big cock you have there ) - and I hope you don't mind being abbreviated to AJ?). Keep an eye on your mood too. I'm glad you feel you have friends here - we're an odd bunch I guess, but there is a lot of support here if you ask for it. My experiences with Cyproterone acetate were very interesting. My wife is very supportive, but as my mood changed I still felt that I was entering a lonely place and I became a little afraid that I was becoming depressed. This only took a few days. But as I've said in other posts, I was already a bad sleeper and the hot flushes made it so that I was hardly getting to sleep at all. Maybe if I can get on top of the sleep problem I'll try again, but we have to listen to all those eunuchs who say they cannot go without HRT because of depression. It isn't what we want to hear, but we must bear it in mind, and be prepared to accept that castration for most of us may be a lovely fantasy, but a bad reality. I think I may have bumped into this twice already and it might take another chemical castration trial or two before I can be sure that it really isn't right for me. In the meantime I still enjoy the fantasy. Do you have anyone in your circle of friends (at home, I mean, not on-line) who knows and supports your wish to try this?

[bobbie (imported)]

Bobbie, you're quite right about the penis measurements. Flaccid size varies a lot with temperature, and erect measurements might become academic when it no longer reaches full hardness. But I can understand why AtlantaJim wants to keep records (BTW AJ, thats a nice big cock you have there ) - and I hope you don't mind being abbreviated to AJ?). Keep an eye on your mood too. I'm glad you feel you have friends here - we're an odd bunch I guess, but there is a lot of support here if you ask for it. My experiences with Cyproterone acetate were very interesting. My wife is very supportive, but as my mood changed I still felt that I was entering a lonely place and I became a little afraid that I was becoming depressed. This only took a few days. But as I've said in other posts, I was already a bad sleeper and the hot flushes made it so that I was hardly getting to sleep at all. Maybe if I can get on top of the sleep problem I'll try again, but we have to listen to all those eunuchs who say they cannot go without HRT because of depression. It isn't what we want to hear, but we must bear it in mind, and be prepared to accept that castration for most of us may be a lovely fantasy, but a bad reality. I think I may have bumped into this twice already and it might take another chemical castration trial or two before I can be sure that it really isn't right for me. In the meantime I still enjoy the fantasy. Do you have anyone in your circle of friends (at home, I mean, not on-line) who knows and supports your wish to try this?

When I was on androcur I seemed to need a lot less sleep. That remains after castration with me. Sleeping pills seem to get me a good nights sleep.

You may want to try a smaller dose of androcur for a while. Get your body use to a lower level of testosterone. It will not be such a shock. Your hot flashes should be far less or not noticed. The depression may reduced or gone. What ever dose you were taking try taking half. If the effects are still too strong try reducing it more. Once your body is used to a level for perhaps a few weeks or month or two increase the dose some. If you slowly shut down your hormones you can reduce some of the shock and ease yourself into eunuch levels. Just a thought.