Dealing with mental effects of a low testosterone

[homptydumpty (imported)]

The mental effects on my body post castration.

Being castrated at the age of 20 in 2006 had a profound effect on my body and minds functionality. Only now am I coming full circle with realizations of just how different of a person I have become due to my elective surgery. At time is feel as though my mind is racing threw thought after though, though there seems to be no point to the process. My thoughts are so scattered and when I try to catch them my heart races to near exhaustion, then still I cannot come to a conclusion to the simplest of questions.

Finding happiness in a cluster-fuck of a world. Mind me I may sound crass, though happiness comes from within. Even though ones body may not be at the desired level of functionality, the individual can & should still maintain a healthy and productive life. I know right now I am deeply confused as of to what path in life may be the right one for me. This confusion has led to a bit of what some may see as depression. I do not feel that depression adequately encompasses the true structure of my unhappiness. Maybe this is coming out wrong, but I try in ever y way possible to surround myself with true beauty. I want enlightenment. Maybe my current living situation or work environment causes the uneasiness, however at the point that I realize this emotion I need to take it upon myself to correct the situation. To rearrange things and find a more suitable way to feel right.

Lately I have been latching onto whatever guiding hand I can find, maybe this is not the greatest way to see some of that beauty that makes me happy. It works on a small scale. I want to be self satisfied. Relying on others to comfort me all the time is burdensome. Not just for the individual entertaining me but also to my emotional stability. Why do I so easily feel love for anyone who gives me a second glance? Loneliness is lame; I need to find exterior motivations to keep myself on a fulfilling path.

What I want to share is the idea that someone can look within themselves to find true happiness no matter what there physical heath or condition.

z

[nullorchis (imported)]

From my own personal experience, I went from mid-400's T level to 170 over a 3-4 month time. Dr. called it andropause (male menopause).

I suddenly became irritable, edgy, anxious, could not multi-task, could not even single-task, was terribly confused, could not focus on anything or make simple decisions, and lost interest in all those things that I normally found interesting. Normally I would multi-task a half a dozen things at a time with ease, and suddenly I couldn't hardly make one decision or handle one task at a time. And of course I lost interest in sex and could not get an erection.

This could have been caused by years of testicle abuse, or just age, or both.

Testosterone is one powerful hormone. Loss or reduction of it is going to have an impact. Just how much impact will depend on the amount lost and each person's body.

While mind over body can be powerful, unbalanced hormones seem to have the power to take control of both.

More than ever I am believing that anyone who is having new or ongoing mental, physical and emotional issues might benefit from having a complete analysis of hormones by an endoctrinologist. Once one's hormones are in balance one's mind can then work in harmony with one's body.

Had I not just happen to have a complete physical already scheduled I might not have had the knowledge or wisdom to seek medical analysis of what I was experiencing.

I am not one to admit some weakness or lacking in myself and am more prone to thinking I can mentally overcome whatever obstacle or problem lies in my path.

In the case of testosterone I had no idea of what power the loss of it had over my entire mind, body, and emotions. It seems as if the loss of testosterone almost made me incapable of thinking clearly to figure out what was going on or what to do to deal with it. While I have never taken non-prescription drugs, sudden reduction in testosterone in my body might be described as actually being on some mind-numbing non-prescription drug. Closest thing I can describe is not even being able to say : "Help....I've fallen and I can't get up". I felt like I just fell and was in a mental muddle and couldn't even deal with it.

Moral to the story. Getting your hormones in balance looks like a necessity before attempting mental and emotional clarity. I don't mean "pumped up", just in nominal balance. And in many cases even medical science and medical arts don't know just how much of what each person should have. So it can get complicated and experimental and expensive.

[DavidB (imported)]

i have had low t for over a year now. adjusting to being a bit more tired was difficult and i did loose some of that multi-task ability, but that wasnt a bad think for me. I was way over doing it. i know low t isnt for everyone, probably not for most. but i am been a happier and better person, and more productive as well.

[dancinggizmos (imported)]

Is it possible for the testicles to recover after they are atrophied, the problem with me are these Varicocele veins on my left testicle and for some reason both my testicles are atrophied

I am still holding out some hope that once I get the surgery perhaps the testicles could be reversed but as it seems every day I feel worse and worse and my testicles get smaller and harder, now I just feel dead so I wouldnt be surprised if they are done

And are there any bad side effects of TRT, before this I hated taking any medication because I always tried to live a natural life and just be one with the world, which is how you are supposed to live if you ask me, but now I am feeling like absolute death and dont think it is possible to live without TRT, how do people live without hormone replacement, what did people do before they invented this

Various methods were used, normally a guys Testosterone declines slowly rather than quickly due to something like you said which occured to you. I know what you are feeling and know how difficult it can be. Just keep your head up it takes some time do your testing the Dr's recommend and try and follow the instructions as closley as possible that they give to you.

Just my personal opinion no medical advise intended or recommended.

[mrt (imported)]

like even now I feel miserable and dead, as these are my true natural feelings, I just hated being on drugs because they dont make you you, they make you the drug

Perhaps other people might not have had the life I had and can go on TRT, I felt I achieved this peace of mind that can only come from you being yourself and I was so looking forward to starting life on it then this thing happened

Now I am at the point wondering if I should go on TRT or just put myself out of my misery

I know this sounds crazy and people are different, if being on TRT makes you happy then go for it, but me I had such a miserable life and was really looking forward to starting life then this horrible thing happened and effectively ended my life

At this point I dont know what I am going to do

I just loved the person who I had the ability to be, just live naturally and be one with the world, I dont think you can be that person while having to rely on a injection or a gel to keep you going in life

I dont know what I am going to do at this point, again not to knock someone who is on TRT and is satisified, but for me I dont think it is ok

I think Ramses said it pretty well but I'll jump in with my two cents worth. Your body is in Hormone imbalance. Your at levels that are not natural to it and your suffering the effects of this. Sadly we are all born into bodies that are not perfect. When the function well (mostly when we are young) everything self regulates and we don't really need a lot of help from science. Then things happen. Ill health, age etc and things break down. If you were diabetic you could treat your disease with insulin and live or not and die. Ditto things like blood pressure. If you have it you can go "natural" and die of a stroke or like many of us take meds, change you diet and work out more and live. Hormones might seem like an odd thing to take. However those of us who are testicularly challanged (ie Ball less or with damaged Testes) can tell you how much they affect everyday life.

Testosterone gets a bad rap because of people who abuse it. That is they use massive amounts to bulk up and look like they are body builders or Wrestlers. In large doses it can cause many negative effects to the person. Anger (Roid Rage) etc. However this is simple NOT true when the replacement is done in normal male ranges.

With HRT

Little to no anxiety

Mood positive *Outlook positive

Able to make decisions easily

More friendly and able to communcate with people

Life is positive (Whats next?)

Without HRT

Anxiety to levels that Doctors are concerned about.

Mood? Depressed... Clinical levels like mental illness levels.

Total lack of ability to decide

Energy? Low to none

Angry snapping at others for no reason.

Life is... Sitting around waiting to die.

Other problems like night sweats.

Yes, its also about sex drive. Without Testosterone sex is just "why? Whats the point?" With it - sure I seek it out and enjoy it VERY much...

[Testman (imported)]

I don't consider TRT as being on medication as much as taking something my body needs and craves.

Me neither. In fact, even in very high doses, I have never had any of the so-called "side effects" the media constantly bombard us with on TV. And I have many friends who use high amounts of it, and they all say the same thing.

[devi (imported)]

And then there is me. --Have had no HRT. --Just can't say that I've ever ever once ever have been depressed. I still get up in the mornings with a certain level of enthusiasm. I work hard and I play too. For me it's very hard to comprehend how anybody would get depressed because they don't have much testosterone. Once for an injury (tendonitis) a doctor prescribed for me some steroids which I took for a week. That actually is the time that I really did not feel any good. The doctor had also commented that because of my condition (XXY) I should have been prescribed testosterone when I was younger. During that week hair started growing on my cheeks. --Hated it because I'd have to shave it off every week or so after that for a number of years. Bad enough my moustache and chin! But my cheeks to? Also girl down the hall commented that she didn't feel comfortable around me with that stuff running through my veins. You know some of us simply are better off without it and feel so much better too.

-|:-\:);)

[Francis (imported)]

Well, for my two bits worth I think the starting place is in finding a good urologist or endrocrinologist to sort out what your actual condition is and give you open-minded professional advice on how best to deal with whatever comes up in that evaluation. Once you have that in hand and know the facts about your T levels, if the Dr's you are dealing with are not giving you a sympathetic hearing and are unwilling to provide you with the advice and/or the treatment you need, move on to another Dr and another Dr etc until you get the degree of professional understanding you need.

From my own experience Dr's are very reluctant to even talk about it and I have to say that I finally learned to live with my loer levels of T (under 400)and now wish that I had been more agressibe about insisting on treatment.

I hope it works out for you and that you get the help you need. In my case the low T was something I could live with but on looking back, it definitiely affected my quality of life and my professional career. The advice above is the advice I wish someone had given me 20 years ago.

Good Luck and God Bless

Francis

[notalife (imported)]

With HRT

Little to no anxiety

Mood positive *Outlook positive

Able to make decisions easily

More friendly and able to communcate with people

Life is positive (Whats next?)

Without HRT

Anxiety to levels that Doctors are concerned about.

Mood? Depressed... Clinical levels like mental illness levels.

Total lack of ability to decide

Energy? Low to none

Angry snapping at others for no reason.

Life is... Sitting around waiting to die.

Other problems like night sweats.

Yes, its also about sex drive. Without Testosterone sex is just "why? Whats the point?" With it - sure I seek it out and enjoy it VERY much...

but do the women you are with enjoy it very much? For me that was the best part, knowing a girl wanted you and was turned on, I dont think you could get that with taking a fake supplement

And I am not anxious at all, I am just waiting around to die pretty much, the problem is you have to adjust to this world and get a job and all that crap, I would feel content living a life in denial just sleeping, fantasizing about the life I could have had and eating when I am hungry, at this point I dont know what to do because I am going to be homeless in 7 days, I felt like someone who was going to change the world and make it a better place, but in many ways this world beat me down and led me to the shape I am in, I am bitter and angry, this thing wouldnt have happened had I been able to see a psychologist when I wanted to or some other things hadnt taken place that were out of my control(as a result of evil cruel people)

I just cant accept this, if I had a different life I might have been able to accept this but I had a really tough childhood, had gone through alot in my 20s and found this peace and clarity to life then a few things happened then this happened and now I am in hell, I am just unable to accept this, I feel the only way to accept this is to try an adjust to life without taking TRT and living how I am

Of course my consience is telling me to get revenge on certain people who helped me be in the shape I am in, but because I was a coward before this and I am a coward now I probably wont do that

[notalife (imported)]

And then there is me. --Have had no HRT. --Just can't say that I've ever ever once ever have been depressed. I still get up in the mornings with a certain level of enthusiasm. I work hard and I play too. For me it's very hard to comprehend how anybody would get depressed because they don't have much testosterone. Once for an injury (tendonitis) a doctor prescribed for me some steroids which I took for a week. That actually is the time that I really did not feel any good. The doctor had also commented that because of my condition (XXY) I should have been prescribed testosterone when I was younger. During that week hair started growing on my cheeks. --Hated it because I'd have to shave it off every week or so after that for a number of years. Bad enough my moustache and chin! But my cheeks to? Also girl down the hall commented that she didn't feel comfortable around me with that stuff running through my veins. You know some of us simply are better off without it and feel so much better too.

-|:-\:);)

what do you do for a living? do you have any sexual relationships? do you know your test score?