I appreciate all the advice that everyone gave me, suggesting more time and patience.
But after going to see my doc regarding side effects of the drugs, and having to take a ton of tests that made me miss my flights back to LA and thus also miss the MOM
I gotta a bunch of info.My testicals have atrophied to about 1/5 their original size. No chance that they can go back to working like before, not that that is what I wanted anyway. Although everyone here has warned that taking androcur can do long term damage, my urologist was just surprised that it happened to this extent so quickly. As they say mileage may vary.
They are taking me off the androcur, and my testicals still won’t produce any testosterone. They are permanently shutdown. They are also going to continue to atrophy and become much smaller, which is kind of hard to believe, considering how small they are, I wasn’t a big guy beforehand. At which point removal is highly likely.
Then I was off to the endroconologist for even more fun test. Including bone density and like a pint of blood work and ct scans etc... we meet again next week but surprisingly he said that if I am functioning well on no t then he doesn’t see a need to give me any at this time, he said there will be plenty of time for that later if needed.
So moral of the story, test drives can sometimes become the permanent answer.
I feel very positive about everything that has happened, (so far) and I am very glad that even just mentally I thought I was doing a test drive to adjust.
I hope and pray that what I wanted turns out to also be what I got.
So I don’t know technically if I am eunuch now, because I still have them, but they will never work.
Any way thanks for letting me ramble