I take it you are asking if some seek castration for the purpose of going through the procedure, as opposed to seeking castration for the aftereffects.
To tell you the truth, I did not look forward to the procedure itself at all, and only wanted the aftereffects. Indeed, I I worried about things such as, would Spector's anesthetics be effective, would it hurt too much, was Spector too old to do this, and what if something went terribly wrong and I needed emergency treatment? On the day before my appointment, it was all I could do to pretend to be just another Philadelphia tourist and try to keep my mind off of what I was going to go through tomorrow. I had never had any type of surgery before, and the worst I had ever endured was getting my wisdom teeth pulled in 1997. The truth is, the castration procedure scared me, and I saw it as something I had to get through in order to obtain the benefits of castration.
What I really wanted was pretty much what Kelly wanted; that is, to stop testosterone production and make sure my body never became any more masculine. More immediately, I wanted to get rid of that male sex drive.
As it turned out, the procedure was not that bad, the anesthetics did work, and I had no complications, but I was so relieved when my surgery was finished. Then I waited for the effects of castration to take effect. I did not have to wait long. Even before I left Philadelphia, I started to feel a lot lighter and more calm all of the time. Except for occasional nocturnal erections, my male sex drive was almost entirely eliminated, good riddance
Last November I ended my experience as a eunuch when I started taking 1mg Estrace daily. I have not had any nocturnal erections for a few months, so I think and hope that the estrogen put out the last of the male sex drive. Curiously, I have had a few orgasms in my sleep during which I had no erection.
I often see in the eunuch newsgroup, as well as in some of my E-Mails, men asking me about castration while stating that they wish things such as feeling the pain, having a woman do it, or some other scene. While men who have such desires do not offend or me at all, I do have to worry if they are really going to be happy after the scene is finished and the aftereffects arrive. When someone expresses these desires, I do not give them the red light, but I do give the yellow light. The desire to go through the surgery procedure does not mean one should not be castrated; it does mean they should be very cautious, think about this a lot, and seriously consider what it will be like after the procedure.
Sherry Joanne Collins
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