I guess you could call me a "lurker" as well. I originally started out just reading the stories. I have been following the story of "Tim's Last Orgasm". Definitely NOT a short story but with a lot of depth to it. Any way, I only recently began reading the message board and find it not only interesting but very informative. I have no real desire for being a Eunuch, however, I am a Fantasy/Role Playing guy who has had several recent experiences with guys wanting a medical scene with either/both castration and penectomies. I personally have had the fantasy of a penectomy only, since I've always enjoyed the feeling of withholding orgasm for weeks at a time. Thus, my enjoyment of Charlieje's story.
To sum this post up, I have not posted for the previousely stated reasons, however, being asked to has prompted my entry. As for fear of posting, that has never entered my mind.
Well, I know there is a lot of BS out there, but, frankly, it seems a little strange to feel that I need to "prove" myself before being taken seriously. I am mostly interested in Penectomy - I've given it years of thought, weighed pros and cons, come to decisions, and have tried various ways to find the help I would need. Someone suggested this place, and again, I find I'm faced with an uphill battle.
I'm not meaning to criticise. I do understand that it's a sensitive subject, for many reasons. But it is discouraging.
Ideally, I envision a pain and domination scene - and so it seems particularly out of place to have to make such a continued effort to get there. Couple all of that with being often genuinely busy, and I just haven't posted much....
I guess if I had found this place first, it might have seemed more natural to go through all the priliminaries. As it is, I find myself sighing and saying 'oh, all this again'...
When I first realised that this was actually possible - and was terrified and fascinated at the same time - I would never have guessed, that after the decision was made, it would be so difficult to get rid of the little guy..
