A lesson from the Hijra

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A lesson from the Hijra

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๐Ÿ˜„The other day I was feeling kinda down, kinda empty and possibly headed toward depression. Not really feeling like doing anything constructive I decided to go down to the swimming hole and ruin everyones day. It felt fucking great. I cleared the place out. I got the idea from the hirja in India.

Since shame really doesn't bother me I just walked down to the river with all the beautiful college kids and shared a bit of my life. Anyway in short order the psychological effect set in and they all broke up and cleared out. It was so fucking great I wanted to splooge! I bummed a smole after a swim and rode home, classic!

I think it works 'cause you are affirming yourself. Try it when your feeling worthless it may change your outlook and brighten your day, it sure did mine!

chilli
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OK, OK. I "hirja" the first time!๐Ÿ˜„

I think it's "Hijra", though.

Giggle!

Yoli

In manic state.
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FianceeUvBigGuy (imported) wrote: Tue Jul 22, 2008 8:18 am OK, OK. I "hirja" the first time!๐Ÿ˜„

I think it's "Hijra", though.

Giggle!

Yoli

In manic state.

You know my smelling is all messy. That's what happens when god gives you a pea brain and near sided vision.

Shoot I used to be able to read the bottom of an eye chart!

chilli

with little mousy stuck on sticky pad.
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chilliwilli (imported) wrote: Tue Jul 22, 2008 12:57 pm You know my smelling is all messy. That's what happens when god gives you a pea brain and near sided vision.

Shoot I used to be able to read the bottom of an eye chart!

chilli

with little mousy stuck on sticky pad.

Stop now! You're only encouraging me!๐Ÿ˜„

But, in all fairness, most messes ARE smelly!๐Ÿ™„

(Yoli!...Yais?...SHUT UP!...'K.)

Y.
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chilliwilli (imported) wrote: Tue Jul 22, 2008 1:23 am ๐Ÿ˜„The other day I was feeling kinda down, kinda empty and possibly headed toward depression. Not really feeling like doing anything constructive I decided to go down to the swimming hole and ruin everyones day. It felt fucking great. I cleared the place out. I got the idea from the hirja in India.

Since shame really doesn't bother me I just walked down to the river with all the beautiful college kids and shared a bit of my life. Anyway in short order the psychological effect set in and they all broke up and cleared out. It was so fucking great I wanted to splooge! I bummed a smole after a swim and rode home, classic!

I think it works 'cause you are affirming yourself. Try it when your feeling worthless it may change your outlook and brighten your day, it sure did mine!

chilli

Hmmmm... when I feel as you describe, worthless and depressed, the sensation is usually triggered by an experience like you had with everybody clearing out. I guess in a way it's still affirmation of myself. But maybe as I am rather than as I see me. Now that's fucking depressing. I'm really feeling worthless. Thanks Chile!

Think I'll go down and rob a convenience store. Maybe I'll get lucky, and the cashier will bust off a cap in my unworthy ass. ๐Ÿ™
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chilliwilli (imported) wrote: Tue Jul 22, 2008 1:23 am I decided to go down to the swimming hole and ruin everyones day...
chilli

Chilli,

Two questions, if I may.

One: WHY ruin the day for others?

Two: HOW did you do that?

Yoli

Waitin' for the tornados and rain that Hurricane Dora will drop on me in a few more hours.
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chilliwilli (imported) wrote: Tue Jul 22, 2008 1:23 am ๐Ÿ˜„The other day I was feeling kinda down, kinda empty and possibly headed toward depression. Not really feeling like doing anything constructive I decided to go down to the swimming hole and ruin everyones day. It felt fucking great. I cleared the place out. I got the idea from the hirja in India.

Since shame really doesn't bother me I just walked down to the river with all the beautiful college kids and shared a bit of my life. Anyway in short order the psychological effect set in and they all broke up and cleared out. It was so fucking great I wanted to splooge! I bummed a smole after a swim and rode home, classic!

I think it works 'cause you are affirming yourself. Try it when your feeling worthless it may change your outlook and brighten your day, it sure did mine!

chilli

Hi Chilli,

I am sorry you have been feeling a down. I hope you are taking care of this in real way. I'm pretty sure there are better options available for getting some relief.

Hugggs
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Hey folks-

Let me turn down the tunes...I'm kinda an autophyle...woop I mean audiophyle. And Gil "No! I'm not turning my tight little ass into a convience store!" even though I may be a fucking whore deep deep inside. I've got class. ๐Ÿ˜„

jemagirl I'm not angry or depressed. I love how I am. I'm a very, very, very unique person. I never got bitter or vengful of the outside world. I am a very courageous person and accepting of others. While horrible things happened to me, I never let those things make me turn ugly. I just talked with my abuser the other day, I call her twice a week. We have good exchanges. Sometimes I have to tear her heartout and she will rethink her position. She is not remorseful or apologetic in the least. So there you have it.

But I was well cared for. My mother was the evil witch. A school mates mother was the good witch. She would come out to see me at school all the time. So that's how I did it Yoli...and of coarse what's mine is yours. I may not be able to resist but I can still run. (Sometimes this comes in handy with the bosses). Though one of the bosses is so intelligent and sweet I'd love to be caught in a dark corner by her anytime...but I have morals...no I don't either...

Anyway at the swimming hole I, just for that moment, had to release all these years of angst and isolation. This group of eight college girls had to accept the psychologial gravity that there are men out there, functioning memebers of society, who are so scared they will never be able to function...at all in the pressence of a woman. It's like looking at a horribally disfigured person, until you get to know them, you will be repulsed.

Off to the hardware store. I gotta mount a Berkley bike license that exp in 1975 on the cruiser. In the mean time let me know if there's anything I can do for you.

chilli-
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Gil (imported) wrote: Wed Jul 23, 2008 2:21 pm Hmmmm... when I feel as you describe, worthless and depressed, the sensation is usually triggered by an experience like you had with everybody clearing out. I guess in a way it's still affirmation of myself. But maybe as I am rather than as I see me. Now that's fucking depressing. I'm really feeling worthless. Thanks Chile!

Think I'll go down and rob a convenience store. Maybe I'll get lucky, and the cashier will bust off a cap in my unworthy ass. ๐Ÿ™

Gil-

...Gosh...I'm sorry already...I didn't mean for you to feel like that...There's so much drama around here. Is it my fault that you feel that way or is there something you can do to make yourself feel more worthy? If it helps, making you feel unworthy was not the intention, but what can I do about an unworthy ass anyway. I feel like I'm in a virtual mental ward!!!!

I just got back from my ride, lunch and a dip in the jacuzzi (I pass my gym on the way to just about anywhere). I really love my community!!! They are some of the kindest loving people.:)

Now I must go take care of the abused and neglected, the bitter and hostile and of coarse the gluttons....Now should I drive my roadster, the dually or the econobox....ok ok I'll stop!

chilli-chile
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chilliwilli (imported) wrote: Thu Jul 24, 2008 3:31 pm Gil-

...Gosh...I'm sorry already...I didn't mean for you to feel like that...There's so much drama around here. Is it my fault that you feel that way or is there something you can do to make yourself feel more worthy? If it helps, making you feel unworthy was not the intention, but what can I do about an unworthy ass anyway. I feel like I'm in a virtual mental ward!!!!

I just got back from my ride, lunch and a dip in the jacuzzi (I pass my gym on the way to just about anywhere). I really love my community!!! They are some of the kindest loving people.:)

Now I must go take care of the abused and neglected, the bitter and hostile and of coarse the gluttons....Now should I drive my roadster, the dually or the econobox....ok ok I'll stop!

chilli-chile

Hey! I'm not feeling bad. Your post made me chuckle, and I was just having fun with it. BTW, "bust a cap off in yo ass" is Ebonics for "shooting someone with a handgun". No sexual connotation whatsoever.

And when you're logged on to this site, you ARE in a mental ward!!! I visit here to get lost in the chaotic absurdity of the place. Kind of like Alice through the looking glass, except I can check out any time I like. Just wish I could contribute more to the chaos. Feel like I'm taking, and not giving back. Know what I mean?
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