Help with my fanasy.

[Blaise (imported)]

Have you tried chemical castration? It is easy, and not too expensive, not permanent, let's you "test the waters" before you take the plunge.

Good suggestion. My opinion.

[stephenhero (imported)]

No, no, absolutely not. I have sexual fantasies only, but in real life I would absolutely hate it. The fear of atcing out my fantasies - ont just by castration, but by allowing myself to be emasculated in any way at all, is horrifying and terrible to me. That's one of the reasons that I hate my sexuality, and that I hate myself. I will never choose to take anti-androgens. I am already resolute that I will in no way act out my fantasies: the question is, is there any way of getting rid of them? T

hey are the only sexuality that I have,

and I hate it.

I hate it, I hate my body, and I hate myself. I'm depserate for some hope, otherwise I will never be able to lead any sort of life pleasurable to me. That's why I've considered taking my own life.

[A-1 (imported)]

No, no, absolutely not. I have sexual fantasies only, but in real life I would absolutely hate it. The fear of atcing out my fantasies - ont just by castration, but by allowing myself to be emasculated in any way at all, is horrifying and terrible to me. That's one of the reasons that I hate my sexuality, and that I hate myself. I will never choose to take anti-androgens. I am already resolute that I will in no way act out my fantasies: the question is, is there any way of getting rid of them? T

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hey are the only sexuality that I have,

and I hate it.

I hate it, I hate my body, and I hate myself. I'm depserate for some hope, otherwise I will never be able to lead any sort of life pleasu
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rable to me. That's why I've considered taking my own life.

O.K., I am no counselor or doctor.

You have a serious self esteem problem that has escalated to the point where your personality seems ready to split.

On the one hand, you hate your body and yourself, and perhaps then you look to punish yourself by emasculation for your unworthyness. Or, perhaps you see your life as something you cannot control and that your gender is not right.

Look, a fantasy is a fantasy is a fantasy... IT really has nothing to do with real life unless you decide to live it. I see the fantasy as just another excuse to hate yourself.

First, you need to learn to stop hating yourself, but if your fantasy does not go away after this happens, do not be concerned. After all, it IS just a fantasy.

Generally people who hate themsleves have adopted somebody else's standard and have failed to measure up. What you should be hating are all of the things that you have been convinced that you should be, but that you are not.

But most of all, you need to separate youself from the person, organization or group that insists that you should feel, act or think a certain way. I mean, as long as you and your fantasies hurt nobody, they are doing no harm, as long as you acknowledge that these fantasies cannot determine what your life is or might be.

YOU, my friend, determine that, and your fantasies DO NOT determine that.

O.K.?