paulault (imported) wrote: Wed Jun 10, 2009 5:26 am
Danya, i know how the work load goes sometimes but consider this to the bosses you get the job done while possibly others might not, in their eyes this makes you indispensable at the moment, if and when more cuts happen you won't be at the top of the list. What many employers don't realize is we who transition in the workplace actually increase our productivity, this may be due to feeling at ease with who we are or working harder to prove ourselves.
You are doing things to alleviate your stress, going out with friends and playing the organ at church, i do activities that relieve stress too, bowling and going out with friends, like you do.
Wow a fund raiser, you really do have many people that think you are a really special person not because you are trans but because you are you.
I totally agree you are well along towards your goal, although we started HRT about the same time i won't go full time till early next year, that's my plan and I'm on schedule.
Paula
Hi Paula,
It's great to hear from you. I agree that my productivity has gone up.
Unfortunately, though, I may in fact lose my job by the end of next week. This is all very political. A large part of the problem is that all but one of the people who know how very hard I've been working for at least the last 18 months were either laid off or decided to leave on their own. The remaining person, my former boss, knows how I have slaved away at all of this. He was stunned when he heard what went on today.
Even the other department I chiefly collaborate with finally gets how hard I've been working. This was a result of one of the supervisors sitting in on a 5 hour meeting with me and one of our consultants.
This was an eye-opener for him. He now tells me the company expects far too much from me. Today he told me I need to rest. Several other people in the other department tell me I need time off. That would be great but the truth is it won't fly with my own management. The new folks are totally clueless as to my real contributions.
We were given permission last summer to hire a person to help me for this problem project and we interviewed a number of candidates. At that point, we were unable to find anyone with experience in this very new, and different version of this extremely expensive software system. Then we had a hiring freeze so we didn't interview anyone else.
Strangely enough, I am feeling confident of my situation no matter what happens with my job. If I lose my job, I'm sure I'll have difficult moments, but I have been through some very difficult situations before and thrived, in the end.
I also have an advantage now that I did not when I first became me at the office. I have lot's of cool, supportive friends right here on the Archive.
I would not have felt this confidence under the same work situation before I started this transition journey. Losing my job would present quite a challenge but it would also provide an opportunity. And I would be free of what my former boss views as an environment that 'sucks' at a company that has lost its spirit.
A note to anyone I owe photos, letters or anything else: I apologize, but I am just too busy right now to do anything other than make my situation work, whatever the outcome for my job.
Paula, I'm delighted you wrote.
Hugs,
Danya
Late this afternoon, I went to church to practice the pipe organ for tomorrow's service. It doesn't take long for me to get totally involved in the music and feel free from my cares. When I am performing music myself, I soon feel that I am one not only with the music but with the instrument, too. Nothing else exists for me when I'm in this beautiful space.